K, this was me

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We were so busy, busy, busy! I'm so glad our agency gave us the weekend to have them and then decide to go through with the placement or not. We are so torn with the decision. Part of us wants to do it but after much talking we found out we will be way over our heads with 4 kids under the age of 3 (1 in pull-ups and then other 3 in pampers) plus both of us working full time. Then our poor Mia also got accidentally hit about 5 x, we also noticed we weren't able to hold/pick her up as much and Mia was just so cranky that last night she slept like a baby. I feel so bad letting our agency know we won't be able to go through with the placement but we have to do what's right for our family and those kiddos. I just wish I didn't feel so bad

it's so hard to say no!
So now we decided to let our agency know that we will only be taking in a placement if 1 kiddo is in diapers and the rest will have to be school age.