I never...

theluvof2moms · #1 (**permalink**) 12-20-2007, 01:06 PM

in a million years thought that I would be going into this holiday season with a child in my arms.

I think being sick is just making me a little emotional right now...but I have to say I am so mad that I don't even have a referral right now.

This morning I e-mailed the agency because I know our paperwork will be starting to expire over the next month or so, I think I secretly wished they would tell me I would have a referral in another week but still get my paperwork updated or something. But the only thing they said was I should start updating all my paperwork after the first the year.

They say December is a big month for babies being born but you know what even if they have babies being born in December I am still looking at like another 60 days before a referral can be made. I am so tired of waiting and acting happy and understanding....I want my referral and I want it now. (how does that sound for a big girl?)

Ok my vent is over I swear, I know there are people out there dealing with much more heart breaking issues but man I just want to stomp my feet and throw one big temper tantrum...

Back to waiting and being a big girl about it.

Also wanted to let you know I will probably be off line until after the first of the year we are headed to the beach for the week and I'm not sure if I will have internet service or not.

You all are the greatest and I swear you get me through many a days of just feeling down right crappy about the wait!!!

mildlydelirious · #2 (**permalink**) 12-20-2007, 04:09 PM

Oh Sweetie! I am so sorry this is taking so long.

The waiting just sucks so much. There's just nothing else to say about that. It just stinks. I wish I could make time move faster for you. For ALL of us.

In the mean time have a terrific time at the beach you lucky duck. I've never thought about spending the holidays at the beach but it sounds really, very nice!

I'm keeping everything crossed

that when you come back from holiday your referral will be waiting for you. It's your turn already!!!

~m

nicoleb · #3 (**permalink**) 12-20-2007, 05:43 PM

Amen sister. I feel your pain, I really do.

Have fun at the beach.

Nicole

mcweix · #4 (**permalink**) 12-20-2007, 07:01 PM

You are so close to the top of the list and have waited so long! Your turn is comming! The waiting is horrible but in the end.....blah, blah, blah!

JBB373 · #5 (**permalink**) 12-20-2007, 07:30 PM

Hugs!

theluvof2moms · #6 (**permalink**) 12-21-2007, 05:08 AM

Thanks girls I knew only you all would understand, I totally felt better after my little rant there, I think I needed to just get it off of my chest.

Chrissy, the blah, blah, blah had me

I spent the rest of the evening just singing and acting goofy the rest of the night. We hung more x-mas lights outside and then I didn't like the way the tree was decorated so I completely changed out all the ornaments. L thinks I am offically off my rocker...

But luckly when I'm down L's up and that totally helps!!!

ruby1979 · #7 (**permalink**) 12-21-2007, 06:10 AM

Kristine, sorry the wait has been so long for you but I guarantee once you have that little one in your arms this will all be a distant memory for you!

Have a good time at the beach.

*Mely1015*/Melissa · #8 (**permalink**) 12-23-2007, 08:10 AM

hang in there....you will have that baby home soon and all the waiting will be a distant memory. Have fun at the beach

leanrog · #9 (**permalink**) 01-02-2008, 04:25 PM

Sorry I am chiming in late but I just wanted to say that it stinks that you don't have your referral yet. Don't feel bad about venting because we all need to do that every once in a while and all this waiting would make anyone go crazy. I hope that your referral comes to you soon and you get to see your precious baby's face