Originally Posted by missus.mint
Anybody else think SOs can sabotage a diet? 
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Does that mean I can blame Mark?!

I was HALF the weight I am now when I met him almost 18 years ago.
Very timely thread. I have been agonizing over the last few days about what diet I want to try THIS TIME. I have tried almost every option out there over the years. I always lose weight, but I also always gain it back...plus more. I can lose 30-40 pounds on a diet easily. The problem is, over the years all the "plus more" I have gained back means I have way more than 30-40 pounds to lose. I have 120 minimum to lose. 130 optimally.
I don't want to become my mother...but I am afraid I already have. She is obese and it is going to kill her. She has hypertension and diabetes. And the complications from the diabetes are killing her. She has one kidney working at 15%. Her left leg is purple from the calf down - she is going to lose it. I don't want this to happen to me, but it will if I do not lose this weight. I am already insulin resistant. One step away from diabetes.
I want to do this for my baby girl. I hated being teased for having a fat mom growing up. I hated that she didn't have the energy or physical ability to run and play with me. I want to set a good example for her so that she doesn't end up like me...since I am on track to end up like my mother. I want to break the cycle. And honestly, it does affect making new friends. I never had trouble meeting friends when I was thin. Now I notice how people treat me differently. It's sad, but I'm sure I did the same thing when I was thin. I live in a Wisteria Lane-type neighborhood. I'm "the fat one".
Right now I am struggling with trying to lose the weight on my own "one more time", or skipping that step (which I feel I am doomed to fail) and going straight for the weight loss surgery at this point. I am out of control right now. I was 20 pounds lighter post-baby than I was pre-pregnancy, but in 6 months I have managed to gain back that 20 pounds, plus 10 more. I am now at my highest wieght ever and the scale keeps going up.

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO GET MOTIVATED TO START!! DH and I are planning to go to Jamaica in October for our 10th anniversary. That should be motivation enough, no? Aside from not dying, of course.
/rant TFL.