I know not many come over here much anymore, but this isn't something I care to put on facebook.



For a long time I was sure that I had only wanted 2 kids, but in the last several months I had been wanting to have another. The thing is that dh has never made a decision(or wanted to) Ever since I had Logan I had been waiting for some kind if idea from him.

Well fast forwad 2 yrs. I made an appt to get the mirena. The appt is this morn, but I wasn't sure if I was going to get it put in.

Finally I got my dh to tell me his thoughts last night. No more babies for us

I don't know if you all recall my near death experience when I had Logan, this was a major deciding factor. I know dh is right. Niether him or I want to experience that again. That was the single most scariest moment of my life. I remember demanding my baby because I didn't think I was going to make it out of surgery.. All the while dh not knowing what was happening to me. All so very scary.

Anyways I just felt like sharing because I feel so very sad about this desision. The mirena is just supposed to buy us some more time til dh gets the big V.

Sorry for the rambling!

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