Hi ladies,

Sorry I have been MIA. I will be till Sunday but I had a few spare moments while Mackenzie is sleeping and DH is doing some stuff around the house to typed it up. I have been spending every moment with both of them as I am really struggling knowing he has to leave on Sunday morning. I have been having moments of breaking down completely. I feel so sad and bad and then guilty that I am making it harder on him. HOLY MAN our situation sucks sometimes.

We did not have a "completely natural" birth as I had help with my pain management but I am still happy with how things went and I am still blow away I did it.

I will be back on line and catching up after this weekend. I miss everyone and hope everyone is doing well.

Enjoy....sorry so long:

Birth Storey

It all happened so fast and yet so slow but it seems like a blur now. I had been doing everything under the sun to get things started and NOTHING was working. I was so frustrated and felt like it was never going to happen. I went through moments of complete panic and anxiety over being able to actually go through the birth to moments of begging it to start due to how uncomfee I was.

My DH kept saying she is waiting till my birthday (May 11th) to come and we would not need to go to the inductions…..I just laughed at him and told him no way I am just not feeling it. We slept in on Sunday and I was actually feeling pretty good when I got up but defiantly did not feel I was going to go into labor. We did not do too much and by late afternoon DH asked what I wanted for dinner and he pulled some meat out of the freezer and we decided to head to the park to take our dog for a run. We walked around for bit and let our doggie have a good run. We got back in the car and drove home….DH had already gotten out of the car and was unlocking the house. For some reason it took me a moment to get out and as soon as I shut the car door and took a step to house I look at DH and make this weird sound and he looked and me and said “is it baby time?” I guess the look on my face and the sound I made, made him ask. I was like hmmmmm I am not sure but I have either had a major bladder failed or my water broke. I ran in the house before I made a bigger mess and went in the bathroom. I still could not decide if it was my water or an accident. BUT then when I stud up again I had another huge gush….I have to stay it’s a VERY odd feeling. I knew then it was for sure my water. I told DH “ITS BABY TIME!!!” He was like I KNEW it….and started packing the car while I cleaned up and made some phone calls. I was not having any contractions but when I called L&D they wanted me to come in and get check out. (This happened about 6pm ish).

We headed to the hospital and I had a pad on and thought it would be enough…..HOLY MAN I was wrong. LOL I saved the car but as soon as I stood up to go into the hospital we had another mass flood on our hands. I made a hell of a mess walking to the elevator and up to L&D….there was a nurse waiting for the elevator too and she looks at us and said “floor 3?” I was like yes please, she wished us luck….it was kind of funny but I was a bit embarrassed as I could not help the mess at that point. The L&D nurses were GREAT and told me not to worry it happens all the time…..and they got me a gown and set me up in the room they assess everyone in. They were originally going to send me home but after an hour of monitory and re-checking the color of my amniotic fluid they decided to admit me till I delivered. The fluid changed from clear to a greenish tinge and the baby was not moving as much as they wanted so the doctor made the call to keep me to make sure we could track the stress on the baby as there were some small signs of her not being happy.

At aprox 7:30pm I started having some contractions. They were not really strong but they were definitely starting. They had trouble reaching my doc as they think he was out with his wife for mother’s day….LOL. The on-call doc kept in touch via phone to till my doctor was able to be reached. He came in to check on me between 10pm and 11pm….I was only 1 finger tip dilated so he decided to put some gel on my cervix to get things going stronger and more consistent. The contractions step up a lot but were still no where near consistent. I spent an hour or so in the shower and DH was rubbing my back. The shower really help with the pain but then I got too hot so I dried off and they spent some time on the exercise ball and DH did what he could to help me though the painful contractions. They had to put in an IV at this point as the doctor wanted it in just in case we needed it due to my medical history…..it took the lady 3 tries….ARG….I hate it when you get a nurse bad at putting them in. BUT third time was the charm and I was good to go…..lol. We also brought our laptop and watch some shows he had DL’ed for us but I only got through most of one and I just could not concentrate on it. The pain had increased and I was starting to no know what I wanted or what position to be in. The nurse checked me at about 1pm and there was no progress made….I was so frustrated. They talked to my doctor and we all decided that I needed to get some sleep if possible and rest up for my delivery so they gave me a shoot of morphine and gravel and I took some adavane and tried to sleep for a few hours. They checked the baby every 30min but I was able to rest / sleep between the big contractions and the nurses.

The nursing staff changed over in the morning and I was having regular contrax and was in so much pain. There were going to give me something to “induce” my labor BUT I was doing well on my own FINALY so they decided to let me continue on my own. I did not know what I wanted but I knew I needed some help to get through so I decided to take some help and they gave me some pain meds and I used the gas with the contractions. I have to say I truly think it was a good call for me as it really helped get me though. I was dilated to 5-6 at aprox 10am and then just before 1pm I was fully dilated. I started the pushing and it took me just over 1 and ½ hours to push her out. I have to say the nurse that was with me all morning and through the deliver was AMAZING…she help both DH and I and showed him how he could help me and she was so nice and encouraging and I am so very thankful for her. I was pushing well but the doctor had to give me a small episiotomy so he could help and as soon as he did that I delivered in the next push and it was a good thing as Mackenzie’s heart rate was starting to drop with each contracting….she needed to come out. Once her head was out the doctor did his thing and the rest of her came out so fast…..it was a very odd feeling. She had the cord around her neck but everything turned out perfect. I did not tare any and the episiotomy was really small…I am very lucky. DH said it was the best feeling in the world seeing her come out and then actually seeing her move on her own for the first time. She was suctioned and then handed to the nurses and they put her on my chest to dry and stimulated her for a few moments…..I have to say that was the best feeling I have every had having her on my chest and seeing her for the first time. I kind of remember the doctor telling me what he was doing and that I would feel this or that but I did not really feel anything after that. Even the few stitches I got I did not overly feel…..I was in such a state of euphoria and the pain was gone…..it truly is amazing how that happens. She weighed 7lb 9oz and was born at exactly 2:24pm. She was 21 inches long and scored 8 and then 9 on her tests.

They took her after a few min to do there measuring and weighing and they gave her to DH!!! I LOVED seeing him hold her for the first time…..it was truly amazing and everything I wanted and hope to see and feel. After DH held her they unbundled her for some skin time with me as she was having some raspy breath and the nurses believe that skin time with mom is the best fix for sm issues directly after birth. We spent an hour like that and when they did her re-check she was much better and did not have to go to the nursery. She never left our side. I was then able to shower and they moved us to our post partum room….we got a private room….I was so happy!!!!

She took to her bottle feeding really well and has been pretty quiet. We were released the next day and so far things are going pretty well. We had a bad night the other night and both DH and I are trying to figure out what is wrong when she is fussy but over all she has been an EXCELLENT baby. We are feeding her on a schedule till we can be sure she does not have jaundice and so far so good….but we will not know for sure yet.

We are so in love with her and can not believe we are parents. It still seems so very surreal. She is so perfect and I can not stop looking at her.

I am feeling really good. A bit sore but truly over all really good. I have no really swelling and I am just a bit uncomfee but not in great amounts of pain. My tummy feels odd but I am sure things will get better as each day passes.

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Amanda, James & Sweet Mackenzie

7/17 -3rd Laparoscopic Surgery for Endometriosis
8/07 femara & ovidrel First Cy..... 8/24/07
(After trying for 6 years on and off)

Congrats She is so beautiful. I'm very happy for you, motherhood is the best.
Again, Congrats.

Karen

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Karen (33)
Married to DH (33) in June of 2001
DD (4)

* Clomid 1 1/2years in 2002 and 2003. * 2 rounds of injectables in 2003.Pregnant with daughter now 3 1/2
* 2 months on Femara - BFN
* Injectables start April 25th Follistim and Hcg shot with IUI. No IUI this time.
Cancelled due to way many Mature follicles.
* 1st round of Follistim and Hcg shot w/IUI starts June 7th. 1st round IUI on June 17th
* 2nd round of Follistim and Hcg shot w/IUI start meds July 18th. IUI was on July 28th.
- Aug. 17th 1st beta test 462 ****Miscarried - ectopic pregnancy 9/9/07 Lost right tube.
*3rd Round, Oct. '07 - Follistim & Hcg shot w/IUI-10/28/07 ** ended in chemical pregnancy 11/07
*4th Round, Feb 25th, - Follistim & Hcg shot w/IUI - Cancelled due to many mature follies.

Yayyyyyyy! Congratulations!! She's a looker! I'm so glad you're pleased with how your birth went! I was SO against having an episiotomy with dd, but at that point, when they did it, I was exhausted and she just flew out after that and the recovery was not bad at all. Enjoy your precious new bundle of joy!

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TTC #2 since 3/06
Tried 3 cycles Clomid--BFN!
11 cycles on Femara--BFN!
Feb. 25/08--BFP on 12th cycle!!!!!
EDD Oct.31-Nov.2/08!
Gender 3D/4D ultrasound July 11th!

She is soo beautiful. Many congradulations. Happy Birthday Mackenzie !!!

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SHANA
is the worst!

http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/114905

She is just a little doll!! I know you are so proud!!! Congrats!!

Melissa

What a beautiful baby! Congratulations and thank you for sharing your story.

Kim

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KimberlyBB#2
TTC BB#1 - 6 years-Finally in 2004
DS - 3 years old - Femara baby
Now TTC BB#2

I posted on your DIM board, but wanted to congratulate you over here too. Sorry that DH had to leave so soon. Still praying that the imigration paperwork gets finished and you get the all clear very very soon. I know you all want to be together and you don't want DH to miss any more than he has to.

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Vanessa (25) DH~Matthew (26)
Six rounds of Clomid BFN!
3/20/07 First appt. RE (PCOS)~One month just Metformin 1000 mgs
First round Femara- 15.5 follicle (not big enough)
Second round Femara 5mgs/Follistim 75iu/Novarel-hcg/1000mgs met (4 follicles)-BFN!
Lap surgery August 15, 2007~NO ENDO/CYST Covered in "SCAR TISSUE" from infection? that was removed, HSG tubes cleared out again.
Waiting for post op appt with RE- "CLEAR" and ready to go again~1000 mgs Metformin, 2.5 mgs Femara 2x a day(five days), 75 iu of follistim(six days),Novarel (trigger) w/FOUR mature follicles ~ BFP 10/26!!!! Miscarriage @ Five weeks
Af 12/26-(63 day cycle-Provera induced)-40 mm cyst--Currently on BCP-
Starting Femara/follistim/Metformin 1/22/08-SIX mature follicles-BFP-2/17/08~M/C #2
April 16-HSG-ALL CLEAR! Some scar tissue on left side..but CLEAR!
Diagonsed with autoimmune disease will need Levenox and baby aspirin a day starting on cd 16...