Sad today but hanging in there...

angie33 · #1 (**permalink**) 03-17-2008, 08:43 AM

Hi ladies. Just wanted to pop in and let you all know I'm still around mostly. Not posting much though.

Today is usually a good day for me, being St. Patrick's Day and all. But it's gray and stormy today (which I love usually but not today) I'm home from work sick, stuck in the house all weekend which is making me climb the walls

and also today was supposed to be my due date w/ my third little one. *sigh*

I came home from work w/ 3 pink balloons last September 8th and dsd asked what they were for. I said "well everyone deserves happy birthday balloons don't they? she said "yeah......whose are those?" I told her her baby sister's birthday was supposed to be today, and that we were going to send those pink balloons right on up to heaven. She seemed totally satisfied w/ that explanation and that's what we did. So I decided it's a good way to remember our angels.

I am trying so hard to hang in there, kinda hard being sick and everything, but Lord knows I'm doing my best. I don't want to be a downer, just needed to share with someone.

Take care everyone, I'm gonna go take a nice hot shower and see if that helps.

Oh btw, on a different note, I am also taking care of a very premature calf we had on Saturday. It's just like a baby, we have to get up in the night to feed it and we hope we can nurse it back to health. Calves usually weigh around 70 lbs newborn, but this one is get this--15 lbs.! Crazy, huh? I never thought I'd be a farmer's wife and I certainly didn't know I'd get up every couple of hours to feed a calf in my ktichen. haha My crazy life, I guess.

enigma74 · #2 (**permalink**) 03-17-2008, 09:18 AM

I'm sorry for your losses and sorry you're down today. Hang in there.

AkaMsPris · #3 (**permalink**) 03-17-2008, 12:54 PM

OHHH Angie...I am soooo sorry you are havin a tough day! I wish I could run to your house and give you a BIG hug........Will this one due.....

Hope your day gets better and that shower helped a little! Hang in there sweetie!!! We are all here for you!!!!!!!

khickey · #4 (**permalink**) 03-17-2008, 01:21 PM

That is an excellent idea! I might have to steal it when my angel baby's EDD rolls around.

Celi · #5 (**permalink**) 03-18-2008, 09:01 AM

Angie just wanted to send you a

SweetMissAngel · #6 (**permalink**) 03-18-2008, 02:42 PM

Hi Angie. Sorry you were feeling bad, but it is pretty natural to be grieving on such an important day. I hope your spirits are up some now. It sounds like a great symbolic act you did with the balloons, I hope it helped you feel a connection. You are in my thoughts.

heidsz · #7 (**permalink**) 03-18-2008, 08:30 PM

Hi Angie,

I just wanted to tell you I was thinking about you. Are you the person that told me about silentgrief.com ? I thought you were. That website has been a godsend to me dealing with everything this last year.

I think that is great that you are sending up balloons for your little one. I plan on doing something like that as well in July. Hugs to you and I hope you had a gentle day.

Heidi

angie33 · #8 (**permalink**) 03-19-2008, 05:19 AM

Thanks everyone, I'm feeling a bit better now. I'm still sick, but trying to get up now and get ready for work, even though I still feel crummy. It's on it's way out though, so that's good.

I hope everyone is doing well in their cycles. I'm still lurking around (even though dh wanted me to take a break from the boards-to distance myself a bit) so I'm still following everyone's progress.

Well, it's getting late I better go. Thanks again for the support! You guys are cherry life savers! (I reserve that name for the best of friends in my life, cause cherry is the best flavor! lol) It's silly but it still makes me giggle......hehe