My scan is coming up on Wednesday that will tell us if I've defied the odds and there is a viable fetus in there, or if it's a blighted ovum, etc. I will be 7wks2d which is EXACTLY the same time we lost our last baby. I think it's understandable that I'm scared.

I ended up having to take an emergency trip to the pharmacy over an hour away that carries my progesterone suppositories b/c I was going to run out over the weekend, and they realized they couldn't overnite it.

As we were leaving, I started to panic. My boobs which had been killing me for weeks, were still tender and sore, but I brushed up against something and it didn't hurt as bad as it had before. Then I thought my belly felt different. I'd had some cramping last night, but it actually felt more like stretching pains than anything else, but any pain in that area makes me nervous. And I wasn't nauseous this a.m. Mind you it comes and goes....it's not there everyday, but my worsening symptoms have been my only security blanket.

I ended up crying on the way to the city, while dh was trying desperately to calm me down.

I can't explain it, I am just so nervous and scared. I want this so much and I was so confident and feeling really good about this pregnancy until about Thursday night or so. Then the fear began edging in little by little until it became full on panic. I'm sure it's b/c my appt. is getting closer and as they say ignorance is bliss.

I know I'm rambling and I'm so sorry for that, just trying to gather my thoughts and calm myself down.

Ladies, if you pray, could you send one up for me?? I would truly appreciate your help/support right now. I have 4 more days to go before I know for sure.

Oh and on a side note, my boobs are now really sore again. I don't understand this, but I'm assuming fluctuating hormones could be the reason.(?)

I'm such a mess. I think I'll lay down on the couch and try to read for a while.

Sorry again if this didn't make any sense. Dh has company out in his shop and he's getting ready to race tonight and I don't want to bother him. He's a man, and he doesn't really "get it" sometimes, although he did tell me he's nervous too, but puts it out of his head and that's that. What a gift that would be, huh?

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Angie

Angie 35
Brian 33
DSD Caitlin 11
ttc our #1 for 5 yrs

angel baby 10/26/02 unknown pg till m/c @ home
angel baby 01/22/07 @7 wks 2 days
angel baby 08/01/07 @7 wks 2 days
angel baby 11/07/07 @5 wks 5 days

Angie, You are definitely in my prayers!! Symptoms can fluctuate so try not to worry about that. Sending nice strong positive vibes for you!

You should check out DIS, Michelle (wishing4baby) who also had a loss on our board also just got a BFP. She also seems a little nervous. I am so happy the 2 of you are pregnant again!

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Angie,

I'm sorry you feel like that. I know what you are going through. Try not to analyze the symptoms too much. As Jen said they can fluctuate. Just get through the next few days. I will continue to pray for you and your baby.

Dani

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hi

i am praying for you honey... please try to stay positive... you have come this far. you got over one hurdle by getting your BFP and you will get over this one too.

i am thinking of you and praying things will be ok

Angie,

You are defintley in my prayers, try to stay calm i know its hard.

Many many mnay hugs

xx

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8 miscarriages 1989-2006
1 healthy boy!!! born 97
ttc seriously with new partner of 3 years for 2yrs
june 07-clomid 1st try 50mg 1 follicle failed
july 07 -clomid 100mg +gonal f 150 injections, trigger, iui done, pessaries.(the lot!)

Aug 07- Trying natural, hoping some meds still in system....also getting body ready..accupuncture
ivf - Er nov 5th
Et-Nov 8th 3dt, 2, 6 cell embies...
Failed

Toni

Your in my prayers Angie. Everything will be just fine. The waiting is the worst part. Try not to get yourself stressed out. It is right around the corner. And it will be ok.

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Heather
Age: 32, DH Age: 34
*Unexplained infertility
Sept 07 IVF#1
-Sept 26th-ER (4 eggs retrieved, 2 fertilized)
-Sept 29th-ET (4 cell & 7 cell)
Oct 15th BFN
Mar 08 IVF#2
-Mar 7th ER (13 eggs retrieved, 8 fertilized)
-Mar 10th-ET (8 cell & 7 cell)
1st beta 616!! BFP!!
2nd beta 1904!!
3rd beta 4809!!
April 9th-u/s- heartbeat 124 bpm!! 1 little bean!!!
May 7th-heard heartbeat 169 bpm!

I will be praying for you. Try not to over analyze everything because you will drive yourself crazy and that isnt good either. I have been there and I feel your pain.

rest and take care

TC

2004 – 2 IUI / 1 / M/C July
2005 – 3 IUI
2006 – 3 IUI
2007 – April (100mg clomid/injectibles)
May – no try
June (100mg clomid/injectibles)
July - (150mg clomid/injectibles)

Hey Angie...You haave been on my mind...and I wanted to post a thread...But I knew you would post when you needed or wanted to....I have put you on my MIL's prayer chain....It has worked for me everytime...I hope the "power" will continue for you!!!

As for the symptoms....They still sound VERY postitive to me. I did not even get morning (well all day ) sickness until later so the fact that you have any of that now I would think is a very good sign.

TRY TRY TRY to hang in there...when you feel weak get to your computer and come here.....We are always here for you....we all know where you are and how you feel!!! Keep your faith close, keep your spirits high....As they say don't let the past dictate your future!!!!!

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