If you think getting pregnant with IVF is hard try living normal after a positive beta, I'm constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop, I've never had a M/C in my life but that's not help either. Gosh I'm afraid to get up from bed, to go to the bathroom, every time I feel a cramp is like the end of the world. My husband says I'm going to bring bad luck, but I can't help it, sometimes I feel like I have a bad feeling about this pregnancy and my husband won't hear about it, I know is all in my head, I need to be positive, just like I was during the 2WW, I was sure I was going to get pregnant and I did, I will feel better after the 12th. week. Anyways just venting a little bit with my friends in battle.

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Ainara (29) DH Zoran(41)
DS Adriano (7) natural preg.
TTC #2 since '04
Clomid x3
IUI w/Clomid X1
Dx. MF Aug.'07
IVF #1 March/April '08
E/R 4/14 25 eggs15 fertilized
E/T 4/19 2 Blast.
1st. Beta 4/28 174
2nd, Beta 4/30 336
1st. U/S 5/12 no HB detected/1 sac.
2nd. U/S 5/19 blighted uvum.
Cytotec induced M/C 5/20. (at 7w1d)
IVF #2 (FET) August/Sept.'08

When I got my with the twins, I was a wreck the whole time! I checked my tp every time I used the bathroom, I was sure at any one of my Dr appts that there would be no h/bs etc. I was a mess as they were doing my c/s. After so much heartache to get preggo, I never believed I would end up with babies in my arms. Some days I was fine, others a mess. I think it is totally normal. We go thru so much to get preggo, it is just hard to believe. You will feel better once the 2nd trimester begins, and even better once you can feel movement. We all know how you are feeling!

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Dana (35)
DH (36)

IVF #1 Twins James and Mia born 11-9-06
Natural on 6-22-07 WOW!

I can totally relate- I am 24 weeks and even now I have moments where I freak out and think- have I felt her move yet today?It will go by really fast through so try to relax and enjoy it (in between the stress!)

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Ainara,
You aren't alone. I feel similarly, although I think the tww was a good bit worse than the stage I am in now. Yesterday out of the blue I thought to myself, what if I am not pregnant right now? and then of course I realized that since I wasn't bleeding I still was pregnant so then I thought, "what if everything isn't developing normally?"

I think I will feel better after I see the heart beat.

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DH 37, Me 35
DD 17, DS 14, DD 12

Tubal reversal Jan 2006
HCG Sept 2007 shows both tubes blocked
IVF #1 November 2007 BFN
IVF #2 April 2008 BFP! [b]Twins![/B]

I felt the same when I was pregnant with Keighan.. I too wiped and looked every SINGLE time i used the bathroom.. no matter where I was.. no matter how far along I was.. It didn't get much easier for me as I progressed either.. I was always worrying about something... A big milestone is when you feel baby move.. that way you know if he/she is ok in there !!! but.. the worrying doesn't stop after you have them either.. I thought.. just let me have him and i'll be ok.. WRONG.. it just keeps going.. ughhh

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Me, too!! I've been feeling that way ever since the positive beta. I was so worried about seeing the heartbeat . . . and then we did! Now I'm worried that it was only 107, and that something bad has happened since we saw the bean earlier this week. I'm not sure I'm ever going to relax and enjoy!

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to what the other girls said!!!!

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I thought I'd feel better after week 12, but I still worry every day. It doesn't end. At least for me. I will feel better when I'm holding him in my arms.

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I also checked the toilet paper for spotting every time I went to the bathroom the ENTIRE pregnancy! If it was the middle of the night I turned the light on! After they get here you worry then too.....

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