i can't stop crying. i am thankful i have my shelly as a reason to keep going on b/c i really don't know what i'd do. pretty scary. this is the end of the ttc road for me. i hope to get the energy to dive into adoption soon as i don't want kids too far apart but who am i to try to "plan" anything. it never works out. we will see what God has in His plan. right now i don't understand it. i've been pregnant 4 times and only have my precious shelly. . . pray for my sanity, my husband to not leave me as i enter into depression (AGAIN), and my dear daughter. she already said "mommy sad". she learned that word today

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Rachelle

TTC #1 from Jan 2002 to July 2005, Miscarriage 2/3/03- 1st Angel
1st 3 tries on injectibles/IUI - FAILED
IVF #1 #2, and #3 4/04, 8/04, 10/04 -FAILED
IVF #4 5/05 - FAILED donor eggs (transferred 2- 8 cell)
IVF #5 7/05 DEFET- SUCCESS (10, 9, 4, 2 cell) Shelly Marie born 3/28/06

IVF #6 DEIVF 7/07 FAILED (2- 8 cell) Betas 16.9 and 13 -Chemical
IVF #7 DEFET -11/07 (10, 8, 7, 4 cell) 12dp3dt beta 187, 14dp3dt beta 490, Miscarriage 12/17/07 2nd angel
IVF #8 DEFET 4/2/08 - (9, 9, 4 cell) 13dp3dt beta 203, 15dp3dt Beta 456. Miscarriage 5/12/08 -3rd angel

Done TTCing.
Signed with an adoption attorney and home study provider August 2008 . . lots more work to do. Working on home study right now

Rachelle - words cannot express how sad I am for you. You are so strong . . . you will get through this, too. Do they have any idea why this keeps happening to you? Have they checked for immune issues or clotting issues? I just wish there was an ANSWER, and I'm so sorry you have to go through this again. Just hold your Shelly close, and know that you are loved, and you, your husband, and your daughter will get through this terrible time together.

I just want to cry right now. I am so sorry this is happening. I am praying for thaty little bean to hang on.

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Heather
Age: 32, DH Age: 34
*Unexplained infertility
Sept 07 IVF#1
-Sept 26th-ER (4 eggs retrieved, 2 fertilized)
-Sept 29th-ET (4 cell & 7 cell)
Oct 15th BFN
Mar 08 IVF#2
-Mar 7th ER (13 eggs retrieved, 8 fertilized)
-Mar 10th-ET (8 cell & 7 cell)
1st beta 616!! BFP!!
2nd beta 1904!!
3rd beta 4809!!
April 9th-u/s- heartbeat 124 bpm!! 1 little bean!!!
May 7th-heard heartbeat 169 bpm!

Rachelle, my heart goes out to you & DH!! I'm so sorry this happened to you! I will send many many prayers to you & your family!!

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Deb proud momma to twins -- Brady & Hope 5/18/04

I am so sorry Rachelle

Rachelle,

I am so sorry. This is not at all what I expected. It is so hard to understand why this happens . . . I hope that the love of your sweet Shelly, your DH, and your extended family and friends get you through this difficult time. My heart goes out to you sweetie.

Kim

Rachelle, many coming to you and that your little bean has some fight left in him/her to hang on and thrive. This is so not what we expected to hear, but know that we are here for you as you need us to be. Lean on God, lean on your family, lean on us... I'll for God to give you the strength and fortitude to get through this. We love you sweetie.

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Oh Rachelle, My heart just sank. I am so sorry for everything you have been through.

Know you are in my thoughts. Was there a hb? Sorry to ask, but I didnt see it posted about that, just the growth?

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Stacie
DS~Jake
DS~Elijah