Okay, so I start Lupron this evening and I'm getting pretty close to panic mode. First off, nervous about the shots themselves and the side effects they could bring, even though I'm telling myself that I won't have very many..haha.

Secondly (and this could be my imagination) but my accupuncturist and I think that b/c I have Fibromyalgia and my pain receptors work in overdrive, things that don't normally hurt really are painful for me. Even small gauge needles INCLUDING accupuncture needles.

Plus, this is it, no turning back now and even though a baby is all I've ever really wanted, I had a 2+ year break from drs, procedures, miscarriages, etc. and it was nice. I didn't realize that after that long away from the madness all of the fear and apprehension would come back with a vengeance.

Of course it may not help that I am having an Endoscopy tomorrow for issues I'm having w/ digestion, acid reflux etc. It's been such a problem I've lost 8 lbs (not good doc said to gain like mad before IVF) and have had to stop eating all the things I normally eat, and I'm a picky eater. I'm in constant pain and have to sleep sitting up, etc. I'm miserable and hoping they can give me quick answers and a solution!

So anyway, sorry so long, I just needed to tell someone....

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Angie

Angie 37
Brian 35
DSD Caitlin 13
ttc our #1 for 7 years!

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12/11/09 ER retrieved 26 eggs
12/12/09 1st fert report 23 embryos!
12/13/09 2nd fert report 22 still going
12/14/09 3rd fert report 21 still going
12/16/2009 4th fert report 15 embryos still going - we're transferring 2 today!
12/17/09 4 Embies on ice
12/28/09 beta 851 second beta12/30/09 2152
1/22/10 first ultrasound IT'S TWINS!