Post Holiday Check In

daisy0803 · #1 (**permalink**) 01-02-2006, 11:43 AM

How is everyone doing as the holidays start to wind down? I found that the holidays made this cycle particularly difficult and stressful. I'd really hoped for this one last christmas present, but I'm about out of hope for this month now. On to another try! Just one more and then we will go see a doctor. I'm apprehensive about that because it sounds kind of scary the testing that they'd do on me but I just need to know what the problem is. I definatly O; I'd temped for a while but that added to my stress since it was such a reminder of the failures each month. So now i just use OPKs which is a little easier on me. I'm getting bummed as usual when AF comes and I am considering going back to my PCP to see if she can prescribe something stronger to help me through these terrible days that i just want to sit home and cry (and lately that's just what I do). I'm already on an antidepressant since this has been so tough on me but I don't know what else to do really. I wish I could have the positive attitude that many of you do. YOu are really an inspiration.
How is everyone else doing this new year?

katlin5501 · #2 (**permalink**) 01-02-2006, 05:02 PM

Oh sweetie!

I wish you didn't feel so down.
Everything will work out, I promise.
Sometimes we just need a little medical help.
Please try to keep your head up, it is really
important to do when ttc'ing. I would get
down too but, I only gave myself one
or two days to get depressed around af time
then, I picked myself off the ground
and found a new herb or looked into
more fertility information. It really helped
me to stay focused and do something
everyday for my fertility.
And, as soon as I told myslef well, I'm
gonna start soy and then clomid next cycle
I got a bfp. I think it just took the
pressure off the cycle I was in.
I pray that God can relax your soul and
you can acheive a bfp very soo. Which I
know you will!
It's okay to be upset but, you
need to set a time limit and when you
reach that limit then, stand up and
move forward.
You are going to be okay!
You CAN do this!
I think it is actually kind of exciting that you
are going to the dr, that way
IF there is a problem then,
it will be fixed and you will get pg
presto!!!!

You are in my thoughts and prayers!

I'm gonna send you some baby dust so, make sure you catch it!

daisy0803 · #3 (**permalink**) 01-03-2006, 05:17 AM

Thank you. Doing a little better today mood-wise i guess. I have pretty bad cramps though and a headache wich means that I am definatly on to the next cycle. I will try soy this time; the only difficult part will be cutting it out when that part of the cycle is over. Its the only way that i get protien typically so this will be a challenge, but a very worthwhile one for sure!
in addition, I will TRY to be more regular with the excersize. I know that will help keep the stress levels down if nothing else!
well, happy new year to all

katlin5501 · #4 (**permalink**) 01-03-2006, 08:24 AM

I think having too much soy all the time could be causing the problem.
It causes you to be estrogen dominant.

make sure you take 175 mg on days 3-7. I've heard the green valley brand from wal mart is a good one.

Hang in there, you can do this!

Twinsmommy · #5 (**permalink**) 01-04-2006, 06:48 AM

Oh boy. I remember how sad Christmas and the holidays used to be for me. In 2001, we found out 5 days before Christmas that IVF was our only hope. I spent the holidays that year in a state of tears. I couldn't fathom not having a child of our own.

I never thought I'd have the courage to do IVF -- as Sue and the other girls know, I'm the BIGGEST baby there is when it comes to needles and procedures. Call me Wimp Girl. But somehow, I found the bravery to do it -- thanks to all the girls who encouraged me and gave me hope! And now I have twin boys. All of the tests, all of the procedures, all of the disappointment and tears.... were worth it. I'll never forget those sad feelings of despair, but they've made me a better mommy to Connor and Aaron. No two kids are more loved and appreciated than mine!

And I'll share with you... this was the best Christmas. My boys understood about Santa and giving presents to others. They loved having a tree and decorations and singing carols. Aaron even asked if we could sing Happy Birthday to the Baby Jesus on Christmas. We lit a candle and sang. It was one of the most precious moments of my life and helped remind me how grateful and fortunate and blessed I am.

You're day will come, I promise you. Hang in there. I'll pray for you and all of the other girls here that you find baby success in 2006. I remember how difficult the holidays can be when all you want is to share them with your child.

Karen

aprils0909 · #6 (**permalink**) 01-11-2006, 07:34 AM

Hmmm... I got Mod-Severe OHSS the week before Christmas and went to the hospital on 12/23 for 3 liters to be drained from me. 12/24-25 I couldn't walk let alone visit family. DH and I watched movies alone on Christmas and ate chili for dinner both nights. Real festive. We did give our dog her presents and opened presents mailed in. That part was nice. Sorry girls, I am having MEGA buyers remorse. IVF #2 in progress and start lupron today and I am really mixed up about the whole thing. I am very moody today and want to cry and scream. I'm not even on meds yet! (besides BCPs of course). Calgon, take me away...