Just a little update. I took a hpt test yesterday and today and they're both still negative. I've come to the conclusion I'm not pg. DH still keeps saying wait until tomorrow, but I've never seen anyone get a + beta with a neg hpt at this point. Have any of you?

I'm just anxious to stop taking all these shots and move on. I guess we'll be gearing up for a fresh cycle. I'm not sure if the RE will allow it right after I start AF or if I have to skip a cycle? What do you think? This would probably make me up for a July retrieval. I knew the chances were slim of getting pg with a FET and only transfering 2, but I can't help but be disappointed.

I've come to the conclusion that it's emotionally easier to get a negative while ttc #2, but it's physically harder. The mood swings, dr.s appointments and generally taking it easy have been harder. Before becoming a mom....I would just come home and lay down and stick my head under the pillow. Now I need to try to tell my daughter why I can't pick her up and try not to be too moody with her. I'm not complaining....it's better this way.

I'm also looking forward to a trip we're now planning to San Diego in a week. I've decided to celebrate my BFN! We're taking Siena to Legoland and Sea World. If I was pg, it would have been too much walking for me in the first trimester. So now we're going to try to go before school lets out and enjoy.

Thanks for your support. I'll let you know about my beta tomorrow.

Babydust!
joanne

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Jo,

I'm sorry for your I've seen so many of those in my life!!

I think I can completely understand what you are saying about it being hard with doing IVF and having a child already --- not being able to lie down when you feel miserable and trying to keep those mood swings at bay. You are so right. It's one of the reasons I decided not to do IVF again. I already have two (which is different than just having Siena), but I remember how I felt during IVF and how some days I just wanted to lie in bed and be selfish. I can't do that with Connor and Aaron running around. So, we're ttc without any RE help. I may eventually consider IUIs although we had no success with those before. I'm not interested in even the slim chance of multiples again. I love my twins but it's hard and I can't imagine two sets!!!

Your trip sounds like it will be a lot of fun. Isn't it great to have a little one to share these special times with? I love getting the chance to take C and A to fun places. Enjoy yourself and "celebrate" with a margarita!

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Karen (33)
Connor James
Aaron Michael
November 12, 2002
TTC from Oct 1999 til March 2002; Two failed IUIs; Male factor infertility; IVF#1 successful; Multiples pregnancy!

Thanks Karen! Siena has been so cute with all of my shots. In the beginning I tried to hide them from her. I didn't really want to freak her out. Although, she sees all the heparin bruises all over my tummy. I told her they're chocolate chips! She keeps coming up to my tummy and kissing it and saying "do you feel better?" I'll tell you it takes all the pain away! She now watches me do the shots and is very interested. Maybe she'll grow up to be an RE someday!

I can see your concern about having more multiples. I'm sure your hands are already full. You don't want to be so overwhelmed that your quality of parenting is effected. Are you trying yet?

DH and I had planned to go natural for six months while ttc#2....then call the RE if necessary. We heard how people are more fertile after they've had a baby...like Frani and Sue! Well then he got cancer. Now we don't have a choice. Also, I don't want to do IUI's because they never worked for me before and we only have a limited amount of sperm in the freezer.

My age is now starting to become a concern and it wasn't before. I'm now 37 1/2....advanced maternal age...yikes! This wasn't an issue before. Anyway, we'll see what happens. If we go straight to a fresh cycle I'm still concerned about transfering more than 2 embryos...this lowers are chances. With Siena we transfered 4 and 1 stuck.

Anyway, I am looking forward to are trip. Since we live in Los Angeles we're close to everything. We took her to Disneyland in October and she went nuts! I'm also going to try to do some projects around the house before I started stimming and getting really sore! Oh, and yes...I might throw back a few drinks!

Babydust!
joanne

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