It's over

novadele · #1 (**permalink**) 12-20-2004, 03:18 AM

Hi Ladies,

Just wanted to let you know that I've started spotting this morning. The temps on my chart continue to look deceiving, but I assure you, I am very sick still, and that's why they are up. In fact, I feel worse today, than I did last week. I am going to call my doc to see if I can get in again today. At least now I'll feel comfortable taking antibiotics or strong meds. I want to be healthy for Christmas. This is my 9th day being sick! Ugh!

theoptimist · #2 (**permalink**) 12-20-2004, 03:24 AM

Hi Novadele. I got your PM. I sure wish this was implantation spotting. It is possible. I'm so sorry if AF is coming.

That is exhausting to be sick for so long. Getting well for x-mas is very important right now.
If AF comes...you can try for your

in 2005.
The Optimist

tone26 · #3 (**permalink**) 12-20-2004, 07:26 AM

So sorry dear...I was hoping that the sickness was a sign. Guess you're really sick

I hope you feel better quickly and get back on the wagon

Mom2Thaddeus · #4 (**permalink**) 12-20-2004, 08:52 AM

Novadele. I was so hoping this was it for you. Hopefully you'll start feeling better before Christmas. Do you have plans for your next cycle?

MommaBear · #5 (**permalink**) 12-20-2004, 01:08 PM

Gosh, I'm so sorry! I, too, was really hoping this was it for you.

novadele · #6 (**permalink**) 12-20-2004, 02:14 PM

Thanks everyone. The spotting continues, and I suspect AF will be here tomorrow. That will make for a 'perfect' 28 day cycle, with 'o' on day 14, and a 14 day luteal phase. And I believe my back to back IUI's were perfectly timed as well.

I can't imagine having another cycle where everything falls into place so well. I guess I'm left wondering if indeed it was my cold/illness that messed this all up for me. Or, maybe I'm not capable of getting pg?

I don't know. Last month, I bounced back immediately from the disappointment of AF arriving, even though I had every symptom in the book and I was semi-hopeful throughout the 2ww. This month, I had 'no' symptoms, was very sick throughout most of the 2ww, and yet, with the spotting this morning, I felt very sad. And maybe a little scared. What if this never happens for me? I've never considered that possibility before. I'm just feeling really sad right now. And I'm going to allow myself to feel this all tonight, and just have one big 'pity party' for myself. I will be taking a break for the next 2 cycles, both for financial reasons as well as 'mental health' (stress) reasons. I haven't decided if I'm going to temp or not while I'm taking the break. I'd really like to throw my thermometer in my cupboard for a while.

Sorry to be a downer. I'm going to stay off the boards tonight, and try to get a grip. I'll be back tomorrow.

marissa's mommy · #7 (**permalink**) 12-20-2004, 05:16 PM

I am really sorry to hear your news Novadele. You will have another perfect cycle some day soon that will end on a happy note! The wait does suck but worth every minute. Take care and get better soon.

zlicius · #8 (**permalink**) 12-20-2004, 05:46 PM