my beta came back, BFN. There is no where left for me to go from here.
I am devastated, I guess I just wasn't meant to be a mommy.

I want to thank eveyone for thier support of me, it really means alot to have had such great friends through out this ordeal.

I have asked to be removed as a Host. I don't feel that I can do it anymore in the state of mind that I am currently in.

I wish eveyone the best of luck, whether you already have your BFP or are still TTC.

Carrie

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married 10 years
Me 32 DH 49
TTC#1
Low Count, ASA's present
IVF 12-07 BFN
IUI 4-08 BFN

OMG Carrie I am sooo sooo sorry. My heart is broken for you right now. You have my number, please call me if you want to talk, cry it out, vent and curse, whatever you need. I'm so sorry.

Love,
Mel

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OMG Carrie I am so sorry. My heart is breaking for you. Please dont go away. I understand that you need a break. Just know that everyone is here for you.

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Carrie, I am so sorry. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Sheri

Carrie, I'm so very sorry. I wish I could make everything better for you and do something so your dream would come true now.

What did your doctor say? Is there anything they can do differently? Did they freeze any embryos? Is there any chance you could do another IVF cycle in the future?

You must be just heartbroken. I'm very sorry. Take all the time you need to take a break and grieve... because it is a loss, no doubt about it. Please know that we're all still here for you...

Missy

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Missy

I am so, so sorry Carrie. I have the same questions as Missy. Did you discuss what happens now? Is your temp still up due to the progesterone? What's the next step or alternative? I'm sure your not quite ready to hurdle anything else right now, but I'd hate to think it's really over for you. Take time to grieve, be mad, etc. I hope you don't just disappear.

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Where did I come from?" the baby asked its mother. She answered, half-crying, half-laughing, and clasping the baby to her breast: "You were hidden in my heart as its desire, my darling. You were in the dolls of all my childhood games. In all my hopes and my loves, in my life, in the life of my mother, and in her mother before her, you have lived."
--Rabindranath Tagore

thank you ladies,
no I have no frozen embies that I could transfer. My follow up consult with the RE is scheduled for 1-7, so he can tell me whatever it is he needs to tell me. I can't see another IVF being an option, this one was 7grand all told, and that was after some of the meds for free.

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married 10 years
Me 32 DH 49
TTC#1
Low Count, ASA's present
IVF 12-07 BFN
IUI 4-08 BFN

Awww Carrie hon, my heart is breaking for u right now, I really feel ur pain hon .

I really believe that u r meant to be a mummy Carrie, I am sure that u will get ur miracle, so please dont give up, just give it some time (to maybe save again) and decide what u will do next.

Take the time u need hon, we r always here for u