Hey Lady!
Wondering what 's going on? Hoping you got some great news for us!

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married 10 years
Me 32 DH 49
TTC#1
Low Count, ASA's present
IVF 12-07 BFN
IUI 4-08 BFN

I was pming you earlier when my ds had some friends over and they were behind me, I felt like they were invading my space so I x'ed out. No good news. My period came at full force and I am offically on the IVF bus with you! I'm planning it for January but will let you know more after I see the RE again.

I told you that were ttc buds! We can hold eachother's virtul hand!

Thanks for thinking of me.

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DJ, I am so sorry. I was really hoping that this IUI would be it for you. I didn't want you to have to be on the IVF bus with me.

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married 10 years
Me 32 DH 49
TTC#1
Low Count, ASA's present
IVF 12-07 BFN
IUI 4-08 BFN

I know, I was really bummed!!

Me & Dh talked and I'm relieved to do IVF because it's going to be the end of it all, either it works or it doesn't. We're moving on either way the results go. I can't go any longer, doing experiments of what might work. Every month is pure torture especally when you're being more aggressive with meds and monitoring because then you're expecting it to work. Honestly I'm happy to stop trying different techniques and surrendering to the IVF with knowing if it doesn't work for me then I will be done trying. I can't put myself through this anymore. So the IVF is light at the end of tunnel, either way it goes.

I know you can relate. Thanks for being here.

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I agree, IVF is the end of the road for me. I can't afford more than one round (actually I can't afford 1 round, lol) I know for the longest time, every month I would break down at least once, hiding in the shower, crying and thinking I will never ever have a child of my own.
I talked to my mom on the phone tonight for awhile, since dad and sister weren't home we could actually talk. She so wants to be a grandma again (she was saying something like pregnant women having to pee all the time and my niece was like, is aunt carrie having a baby, LIttle pitchers and BIG EARS, so I told her you better get that off of her brain REAL quick!)
I told her that I would use the credit card they had offered and promised to make the payments. Now I am just numb........finally at this point and I just dont' know how to feel. kwim?
I think I am actually a bit scared to do the ivf, cuz if it doesn't work, I don't have anymore hope.
who knows, Maybe I will get more excited when I start shooting up

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married 10 years
Me 32 DH 49
TTC#1
Low Count, ASA's present
IVF 12-07 BFN
IUI 4-08 BFN

oh yeah, btw, sorry about the game yesterday!

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married 10 years
Me 32 DH 49
TTC#1
Low Count, ASA's present
IVF 12-07 BFN
IUI 4-08 BFN

Haha, You're NOT sorry about the game!

I will only do one IVF too. It's scary. I wish we had a magic ball to look into to guide us but we have to follow our gut. We've come this far to turn away now.

I want to loose some weight. I have gained since being depressed with bfns every month; I'm eating my way to happiness now I'm paying the price. I told myself to get some weight off and start walking, my reward will be my IVF. It's time for me to take responsiblty for my happiness and not let ttc ruin my life, my marriage, my relationship with my kids. Every month has been an emotional, mental, physical roller coaster ride and I can't do it anymore.

Sorry, I'm in a blah mood. Let's be hopeful and try to stay positive.

You're a good person - and a good friend.

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Thanks DJ~ you are a good person and friend too.

As for the weight, I am an emotional eater, and prone to being heavy anyways, so I am now at the heaviest I have been in years. I know I can loose the weight, I just don't and then I eat another piece of candy......*sigh*

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married 10 years
Me 32 DH 49
TTC#1
Low Count, ASA's present
IVF 12-07 BFN
IUI 4-08 BFN