I took DH to the airport tonight so he could head back to school in a couple of days. I can't believe he was here for almost 3 weeks, it seemed like he just got here. My apartment was awfully quiet when I got home after dropping him off. I need to get refocused at work, I feel like I'm not putting as much effort as I could into my project, and the sooner the project is done, the sooner I can move to be with him. Everything is connected in this big series of dominoes, and it's so complicated to explain to people.

During my last visit with DH, we had talked about how we might not be able to afford daycare for an infant right now, and whether this was really the best time. I left that time thinking that we weren't going to be able to try for quite a while longer, and I was trying to come up with all of the reasons that would be a good thing. I focused mostly on the fact that once DH graduates, I wouldn't have to work, so I could be a SAHM. But we were reading some association journals that my DH gets and we saw a salary report for his field. I realized that as a beginning professor, he wasn't going to make enough for me to be able to stay home. So we talked about the benefits of waiting, and how long we would have to wait for us to make enough $$ for me to stay at home. We figured out that I would be in my late 30's by that point (we're talking 10 years down the road!), and DH said he didn't want to wait that long! Can you imagine how much relief I was feeling?!? So we talked more about it, and we're back on track to start trying next year when I get out there and have worked for 3 months (so I have time to find a doc to get clomid and so I qualify for FMLA). I can't even begin to describe how excited I am again! He even said that it made sense to start buying baby stuff now! But I'll probably hold off until I get out there so I don't have to move it all ! We agreed we'll find a way to deal with everything that comes up. It's never going to be a walk in the park.

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