This is only our first month of ttc after our mc in January. Of course, I got the BFN about 5 minutes ago and my husband is at work. I just need to get this off my chest. We tried for 16 months with the first pregnancy and we were so excited. Well I just wanted to hope that it would happen the first time we tried. I know this is so naive. I am just wanted it to be easy this time. Sorry for the negative thread.

Gina (29)
DH (34)
MC (1-26-06 @ 5 1/2 weeks)

I am so sorry about your bfn. I so totally understand about you wanting it to be easy this time. I was the same way after my m/c. It's like, "I deserve for this to be easy after what happened". You know, there is no reason why you won't get pg right away - the conditions might be right this month like they were when you got pg the first time. I know it is so hard to wait - I am not a patient person but I really believe (and forgive me if this sounds preachy) that God has the perfect baby in mind for us. My dh and I were married and used no bc for 12 years before finally getting pg with ds (with fertility assistance). I spent many years longing and being sad that I didn't have any children but now I am so grateful (sp? - my pg brain is acting up) because I have the best baby. He is so wonderful and I am actually kind of glad in a weird way that I didn't get pg all those years if that would mean I wouldn't have him. I think I appreciate what I have way more than a lot of people because of what we went through to get him. God wanted me to have this baby and when things were not in an emotional turmoil for me, I tried to focus on this. When I first m/c'd, I was so angry and hurt and in so much pain that nothing helped, not even trying to think that God had a baby in mind for me. I was basically like why did I get pg in the first place? Why did I have to go through all that pain for nothing? I will never know why, really, but I am sure when I hold this baby in my arms I'll feel the same way. I really wanted the baby I lost but it wasn't meant to be. My edd is Friday and it is already getting hard to think about it. I am sorry this was so long and rambling but sometimes I can't stop myself. I so wish you the best of luck and I hope that you get pg quickly again.

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Elizabeth (42) DH (43)

I LOVE MY AUNT PAMMY!!


11/03 Lost Twin
TTC #2 Since 11/04
8/05 - Repronex 150 and btb IUIs
Positive HPT 8/22
9/23/05 - M/C
2/05 - Repronex 225/150 alternating and btb IUIs !!


It's a GIRL!! Born 10/19/06

to you both!

You've gone through so much to get pg and a m/c is such a cruel twist of fate. I'm so sorry. I really hope that the BFN is wrong! Is there any way it could be too early. Either way I hope the negative feeling passes soon and you feel better. We're here for you and we completely understand how dissapointing the BNFs are...

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Me -29 DH - 32
Married June 13, 2003
Completely anovulatory without meds
10/07 - 12/07 50mg Clomid,
12/07 - DH's SA all normal!
2/21/08 - RE consult
3/08 100mg clomid cd3-7, no follicles, cycle cancelled
4/08 - 150mg clomid cd3-7, u/s on cd14, 1 follicle @ 24mm, trigger shot on cd14 and timed bd,
5/08 - HSG looks good
6/08 - IUI+INJ,
7/08 - IUI+INJ

If I learned something about TTC...there is alot more pain than joy during this process.

Don't feel bad about being upset and angry, we all go throught it at one point.

I've been through a M/C over 1 year ago and still nothing, so I totaly understand the feeling of wanting it to happen sooner than later to prove to yourself (and everyone else) that you can have a baby too.

(((HUGS))) to you and your DH.

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Anick (31) , Luc (33)
Fur baby Cachou
12 cycles of Clomid 50mg, all
Diagnosed with PCOS - Jan.2006
On break for 6 months