Update and Farewell...
I'm not sure if anyone here remembers me, but I'm here for a well overdue update.
Well, We've seen the RE a few times and each time it's the same anwser..."We don't understand why you are not pregnant" ..."Nothing explains it", ect.
I've had 7 miscarriages all less at less than 6 weeks pregnant. My morale is so low, it's scary. My marriage is crumbling under the stress of parenthood, our lifes stoped when we planned on creating a new one. We cannot take it any longer.
It's been more than 5 years since we started what was supposed to be the best journey we took together.
We had a long , very long talk lately. We had to put into perspective what path our lifes took : being pennyless, have major debts from everything we've been through ( no insurance coverage for anything related to ART) and what is the final product : 7 miscarriages, a severly damaged marriage, very low sex drive (actualy, I should say non-existant) , bils , bils and so much more bills...but no baby.
We have put our lifes on hold for 5 years,we can't do it anymore. We deserve to live life to it's fullest.
That's why we descided to back off the journey. We descided that we would enjoy being together and love what we have instead of dwelling on what we , clearly, can't have.
So , long story short, I'm going to concentrate on me, my mariage and my life as it is right now.
I'm stepping down as futur mom.
So as I leave, I wish that each and every one of you get to enjoy parenthood.
Good bye.
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