Needed to rant....

angel_baby1982 · #1 (**permalink**) 08-05-2005, 08:42 PM

Let me tell you my day started off like crap today. I wake up about 7:30 to go to the bathroom and guess who is here yep AF. So I lay back down because I don't have to get up for work for another hour and then my phone rings about 8:00 just about the time I get back to sleep and it's my best friend to tell me that she got back togather with her DH and then she tells me that she is PG 11 weeks and she just found out a few days ago. So thats all I needed 30 min. after i find out i'm not PG I find out my best friend is. Then I get to work and I go to pick up the jug of butter and somebody didn't put the lid on it good and it falls and hits the floor and I get butter splashed all up my pants leg. Luckly I had my dirty close in the back of my car because I was leaveing work and going strait to my mom's to do laundery and so I went out to the car and got my dirty pants from yesterday and put them on. LOL thank goodness my day got a little better after that. DH asked me before I left if I was ok and I said yes why and he said because Regina is PG and your not and I told him I was fine because I have done relized that i'm never going to be a mom and just being there for Regina and her kids is the closed thing i'm ever going to get to being a mom. I know it's like my mom says when god is ready for me to be a mom he will make me one but i'm so tired of waiting and I know that DH and I don't need a baby right now and I think god is just waiting to see if we stay togather or spilt up. I'm working my butt off trying to work every hour I can and it just dosen't seem to get any better so I don't know what i'm going to do. I think the best thing is for DH and I to spilt up and go our sepert ways so I can get everything cought up but he dosen't want to but as long as he is around i'm never going to because he want work and thats what puts us behind like we are. I'm sorry I just had to rant a few and get some things off my chest.

novadele · #2 (**permalink**) 08-06-2005, 08:08 AM

Hi Shannon,

I'm sorry to hear you had a pretty 'crappy' start to your day. I hope things work out the way you want them to.

Hugs,

ttcsoon · #3 (**permalink**) 08-06-2005, 10:10 PM

Shannon I am so sorry about everything, things will look soon I know it, just keep ur feet on the ground and your head up high!!