I have been thinking about her and wondering if she had her u/s?
Steph if your reading this , I miss you and I'm still thinking positive for you! Please keep us updated sweetie!

Only my very best to you and your little bean!

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Hiya Christina!

I have been just hanging around. I have pretty much accepted that it is over. I can't really entertain any other idea.

I keep having weird twinges and cramps...and it feels like it may happen at any moment. I still have brown spotting on the TP...with light pink once.

I am aware that there is still a 'chance'...and I do want to have faith. I know miracles do happen....but I just can't do that to myself. I just can't handle getting my hopes up.

I've been thinking about all the bloodtests that I want them to perform. Since this is number 3...they will look into stuff. I know it's hard to find an answer....but maybe, just maybe we will.

I am still thinking of you and your bean...and I can't wait to share in the excitement of your pregnancy!

Thanks for thinking of me.

My next u/s is Monday 11:45 EST. Unitl then...I live in fear that the m/c will begin at any moment. Why is having a second baby so damn hard for me?

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Steph,
Ever since I read about the u/s I have been thinking of you often, every day.
I hope this weekend goes by fast so you can get some answers and not be in limbo anymore. I'm really sad that you have to go through this... it's just not fair.
I really hope that they can give you some answers soon. The whole #3 thing seems so arbitrary, one seems bad enough, but at least they'll have to do the tests for you at this point. Yes, definitely get them to do any possible tests they can.
I'm keeping you in my prayers.
:HUG:

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Well, I still have hope for your bean!! Hang in there, hon! Big ((((((((HUGS)))))))) !!!

Steph: Just wanted to give you a big vitual hug and tell you I'm thinking and for you today. I hope the u/s has nothing but good news!!!!!!!!!

I'm back from my u/s.

Recap...
Last Tuesday (when I should be 6 weeks 3 days...by ovulation)...the u/s showed a gestational sac, yolk sac, and a fetal pole measuring 6 weeks 0 days. No heartbeat. Dr. said he was not optomistic. Spotting started the Saturday before the u/s...and persisted throughout the week.

Fastforward to today. By ovulation I should be 7 weeks 2 days. The Dr said he THINKS (thinks? Could he be any more vauge) he see's a heartbeat. At least a flicker. I thought I could see it too. This makes me happy...I start to get a little excited...

THEN..he says that it measures 5 weeks 6 days. He said the sac looked good...and the yolk sac looked nice and symetrical...and that he thinks this is all fine and dandy..and that my dates just must have been off.

*sigh*....I swear I am not a pesimist. I swear I am not just trying to think negatively about this...BUT...IT IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO BE A WEEK PLUS SOME...off, date wise.

I got a positive blood test at 11 days past when I KNNNOOOW I ovulated (granted I think I O'd at like 11 at night...so I could prolly techincally count ovulation a day later)....but anywho...if we go by his 'dates'...that would mean m positive blood test was at like 4 DPO. Sorry buddy...I don't buy that.

Now I do realize that measurements...especially this early...can be very subjective. He even said that measuring can be hard at this point. This was also a different machine than last time.

I asked him...if the heartbeat could have just started a little later (because everything I have read...says between 6-7 weeks...maybe my babe is just a slow one)...He said NOPE...it would be that your dates that were off. *sigh*...buddy, I know you prolly see lots of people who are not sure of there dates...but I realllllllllllllllllllllllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyyy don't think my dates are off....lol...I charted...and I'm not an idiot...

Soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo we wait. We wait until Friday when he said....I quote "Then you'll be 6 weeks 3 days...and we should see the heartbeat clearer"...*sigh again*...

Here I am...in limbo. I guess I am just expecting the worst...but praying for a miracle at this point. I will NOT get my hopes up. I can't get my hopes up. There is just not enough to go on right now. The heartbeat isn't very strong, if there at all, the fetus doesn't seem to be measuring where it should be, and I continue to spot.
I feel so frustrated with this whole thing.

Like it's not bad enough that I have to keep going through this crap. Why does it have to be the biggest rollercoaster on top of it all?

Sorry to ramble....

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Oh, Steph! I understand your need to not get attached to something that might not ever be, I really do. I will continue to hope and pray and think of you. I hope Friday gives you some much needed answers. Sounds like your bean is trying so hard to hang in there!!

Hi steff, your experience sounds a little bit like mine, I hope this gives you some hope. Over 6 years I had 6 m/c's - dr's didn't know why then on feb 11 2003 I get a bfp on cd 28. I start taking my prenatals and baby aspirin once a day and hope for the best. I go for an ultrasound when I think I'm 7wks 3 days only to be told I was 6wks 2days (the embie measured 5mm) We could see the flickering hb. I charted and used opk's and knew exactly when I ov'd so I was totally sure of my dates. I now have a beautiful 15 month old daughter and we are ttc number 2. I hope everything goes really well for you. hth

Kay X

Hugs to you, Steph. I hope that you get great news on Friday.

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DD (1)
m/c 6/15/04
DS (born 3/24/05)