I just found this board & think some of you may understand where I'm coming from.............Here's my dilema.
Julie, so true!! I HATE it when our orders get messed up. I ALWAYS order our hamburgers/cheese burgers w/o mustard (for me & the kids). Neither they nor I will eat it if it has mustard on it....yuck!! The last time we ate @ Hardee's they forgot 1 of the 2 kid’s meals. DH didn't want to turn back...seriously that's $4 just gone + no food. ARRRGGG!! Great article, you famous gal!!

Ok, girls what's wrong w/ me......ok, ok, ok (over load sorry) I'll be a little more descriptive! This weekend we saw our friends that have twins (6 mo old). I loved it as did DH. I TOTALLY WANT ANOTHER BABY!! DH is one the wagon & then off again. His reason is $$ (to do the IVF). I totally understand what he's saying, but I still want another baby! Then this morning he forwards an e-mail from a friend saying they are expecting. I really don't like the wife (she's a Bit**w/ a capital "B", seriously!), so I am happy, but depressed at the same time. Why can't we have a miracle & get pg w/o the IVF?!? I know REALLY I should be happy w/ the two beautiful healthy children we have, but.........I feel something is missing. I've always wanted 3 children......does anyone else understand what I'm going thru? We have under a 10% chance of getting pregnant on our own, so in Nov we did IUI....no luck! DH thinks it's a waste of $$ since we've done it how many times before & it never worked. I called the clinic & just to DO the IVF (one time only w/ ICSI its $9K), not including drugs, all my appointment (2 hrs away 1 way), US, bloodwork (which my insurance sucks & there's a $3500 deductible per person). What to do?!? DH doesn't want to go in the hole again like we did when we did the IVF the last time, but sometimes I think if we just tried it ONE more time I would be happy, but what if it didn't work?? Would I or would I be able to accept that it's just not meant to be? HELP?!?!?

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Deb proud momma to twins -- Brady & Hope 5/18/04

sorry about that first paragraph..........I can't go in & delete or change my thread...........

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Deb proud momma to twins -- Brady & Hope 5/18/04

Hi Deb

Sorry to take so long to reply, but I went on vacation (to the beach!) and forgot to leave a post letting you all know.

Anyway....

I can so understand your longing for another baby. Just because we have fertility issues doesn't mean we don't feel the same longings as any other woman. Just because it is more difficult and more costly, doesn't stop us having these longings. I have one miracle IVF son, and often dream of another baby....specially right now when there is absolutely NO CHANCE of it happening for me...

Anyway, I don't know what advice to offer, really all I can do is say I understand how you are feeling. Just because you have two gorgeous healthy children doesn't mean you should feel any guilt in wishing for another baby. I think you should continue to let your DH know how you are feeling about this issue, although I can also understand the burden of the cost of IVF (not to mention the emotional burden possibly). It's a tricky situation...full of emotion... I wish you all the very best, may your dream come true....

Meanwhile, hope to see you more on this board, and to getting to know you.

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I can't offer any advice when it comes to trying IVF again with the risk because I haven't been through it. I'm still on the fence myself as to whether I want to try for another one after the emotional hell I went through to get here. I will say that if it's something you and DH want, it will happen. You have to decide if the risk is something that you want to jump into again, and be honest with yourself when you think about the possibility of a negative outcome. I hope it doesn't come to that, because it's tough to deal with. I wish you and DH the best of luck in whatever you decide to do.

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