Well...unfortunately...

Cybie · #1 (**permalink**) 01-28-2005, 10:19 PM

...AF arrived today. Started as light spotting, so I was holding out hope. But this evening it turned to full flow, so it's over. I'm 11dp5dt, and I'm supposed to beta on Sunday. Don't think I'm gonna waste the money, even though I KNOW my clinic will insist that I test. Don't really want to...

I know I said that I would be OK either way, but it really hurts! Feels like I lost something I guess I never really had! My heart aches that my Zak won't have a little brother or sister to play/bond with. But I will do my best to see that he always feels loved and wanted, and never feels lonely. My DH was so sad, and I could see tears in his eyes, but he says we will be fine, Zak will be fine, and now we must close the IF chapter in our lives.

Thanks, all of you, for your wonderful support. I hope you don't mind if I don't post for awhile. Guess I just need a break from the computer, but I'll be back. I'll be needing lots of advice from all of you mommy experts!! I'm so glad I found these boards...

I know I'll cry a little before I fall asleep tonight...

JavaMomma · #2 (**permalink**) 01-29-2005, 05:11 PM

MasonsMomJen · #3 (**permalink**) 01-30-2005, 08:43 AM

Karen, I'm so sorry to hear that it didn't work. I know what you mean about being sad that your son may not have a sib, I feel the same way. I grew up being an only child until I was 13 and so wanted a brother/sister to play with. I'm thinking of re-approaching the IF subject in the fall again (my dh doesn't want to go through any more).

Hugs, and I hope you are feeling better soon.

JenM

AussieJenn · #4 (**permalink**) 01-30-2005, 06:53 PM

Oh I'm so sorry Karen

I understand how you are feeling....AF showing up must be a big blow, up until then there was still hope for a sibling for Zak, so it was easier to say and believe "what will be will be"....but now reality has struck, and no wonder you and your dh are so sad.

I feel for you sweetie.....and really do empathise....please take some time to mourn, cry and to close the IF chapter as your dh says....to hug Zak and then plan the wonderful life the 3 of you are going to have together....

and hurry on back to us.....

thinking of you....

moosmom · #5 (**permalink**) 01-31-2005, 08:26 AM

I have no words other than I am really sorry that this cycle did not work. Does not seem fair!

slk70 · #6 (**permalink**) 01-31-2005, 10:51 AM

I am so sorry. I wish I had some words of wisdom to make you feel better.

CoriLyn · #7 (**permalink**) 02-01-2005, 10:47 AM

No words can ease your pain.

Just know that we all care.

Cybie · #8 (**permalink**) 02-01-2005, 04:28 PM

Thank you, everyone, so much!! It really means a lot to me!!

Doing OK. Zak is as feisty as ever, and DH is working today, so I'm going to take Zak out to enjoy some of this beautiful weather we are having! He loves the outdoors!!

Enjoy your week, my friends!!