13+ years TTC, 6 losses, 4 IVF's, way too many IUI's numerous surgeries, and countless tears.

I pray and hope I won't have to add anything else to that list. As of last Wednesday at almost 7 weeks, (and even with betas that weren't stellar) we have found out that we have been blessed times two.

We are expecting twins! Both peanuts are measuring perfectly and have strong heartbeats. It was amazing to watch. DH and I were completely mesmerized by their little hearts beating away. DH is so worried about the toll that twins will take on my body after so many losses, but I'm taking it easy. Everyone at work is watching out for me, too.

I have to say I think they're absolutely beautiful! I'm so in love with these two. I have so many dreams for them, they have no idea. I wish I could relax at some point in this pregnancy. I just don't know when that point is. My next u/s is Aug. 2nd and then I'm released to my OB. Fingers and toes crossed, holding my breath every step of the way.

Things are going wonderfully and that is so scary!! Right now, I'm just trying to enjoy everyday. Well that's it for me. Thanks for your love and support, girls.

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I know we've already 'talked', but I just had to say more...

My heart is so FULL of joy for you, Lynne...
Enjoy every minute of this long awaited dream. You will be a wonderful mother, and your babes are so lucky to have you.
Please update us after your u/s to tell us how much the babies have grown, k? Maybe you'll get a pic you can post, too??
You're good to go, my friend.....
(Thanks for giving us such hope).

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Sheri

Our miracle, Andrew, born Sept 18/03

Eight angels

Lynne, I have tears of joy in my eyes for you. Absolutely thrilled by your news. Congrats sweetie!!!

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love
Monika

Daniel Alexander April 27 2001
Angelina Désirée Jan 23 2003

chem pgcy 02/04, 03/04, 08/04 (5.5w), 05/05, 06/05
missed m/c Nov 4 2004 @10w2d "Robin" (MTHFR?)

Congrats! You have been through a lot and deserve to get to enjoy this pg...enjoy your new bump...

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Kat

Angel 07/07/06 6 weeks

Hi guys. I just thought I would update you all that I found the heartbeat on my doppler tonight. It took me a good while, but it's fast and loud and most definitely not mine. I was thrilled to find it!

1 more milestone I got passed!

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Angela (& DH) mommy to...
Hallie, August 2005, 7lbs 12oz
Noah, May 2007, 8lbs 11oz
2 angels, 06/03 (d&c 11w2d) & 07/06 (5w1d)

EDD February 14th, 2009

Yay, Angela!! I'm so excited for you. I'm so glad you were able to find the baby's heartbeat. I'm sure it was music to your ears!

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Hi guys,
Thanks so very, very much for your sweet replies to my original thread below. You're THE best and I can't thank you enough...

Well, I'm still pg, so so far so good.
I'm going through a lot of stress with my job right now. Go figure, it had to happen when I was 4 weeks pg!!!
I teach part-time, and I'm lowest on the seniority list. Because of low numbers, I found out on Thurs that I have to leave my school and go to a different one. I could potentially be starting my new job as early as tomorrow or Tues, but as of now, I still don't know where I am headed or what I will be teaching. I'm pretty bummed. I was having such a good year, loving my timetable, my students and my coworkers are awesome. Truthfully, I was having my best year in teaching yet. Go freakin' figure. At least it gives me something else to focus on while I'm early pg (but I still check the tp EVERY time I go pee. ) My mom is worried that I'm going to stress myself out too much, but minus the hours of tears on Thursday, I think I'm doing ok.

Anyway, enough about me. I miss you guys in globs already, and lurk every single day hoping for good news. Keep the faith, ok?

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Sheri

Our miracle, Andrew, born Sept 18/03

Eight angels

for the recent replies to my bfp thread. It's amazing to see how many old friends still lurk here!!

Well, started my new job on Tuesday. It's not near as great as my old workplace (not that I've really gotten in there to know that for sure, but... ) but hopefully I'll only be there until June, anyway.

I decided to throw caution to the wind and ask to host PAML. It's pretty slow, so here's the plan. I'm going to put cushions on the chairs, and snacks on the table so when you all get there, it will be nice and comfy, k?

It's so hard for me not to post.... I miss you all a lot but would MUCH rather you guys come there than me come here, y'know?
I just don't know how I'd deal with another loss. I know I'd survive it (as we always do) but man..... A heart can only handle so much, eh? Praying my butt off!!

I changed my u/s date to next Thurs (the 26th) because now with my new job I'm working the Wed. The countdown is on. Some hours, I feel like everything will be fine, and some I'm really nervous. But seeing as I can't control it, I'm just trying my hardest to let go.

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Sheri

Our miracle, Andrew, born Sept 18/03

Eight angels

Hi my friends,
I hope you don't mind me sharing here. I know I shouldn't complain because I'm finally pg, but I've had a reallllly hard day. It's not that I'm trying to lean on you all, but I just thought I'd post my latest thoughts.

I think my instinct is telling me that this one is not going to go full term. You never really know what is your gut and what is just fear and experience, but I don't know... I'm def prepared for the worst. My sxs have really lessened so that doesn't help to keep me +.

DH and I had a big talk today and we've decided that we are at the end of the road. Whatever happens with this current pregnancy, it will be my last. I'm sure it will take some adjustment if this doesn't end in #2, but truthfully, I've been feeling closer to the end of the road for the last 6 months or so (as most of you know). We've been dealing with this for 2 out of Andrew's 3 short years....that's a long time. And that doesn't count the 2 losses before DS.

Anyway, I actually feel a little better having made that decision. I think it will help get me through the next few weeks, knowing that this hell will be the last in the TTC chapter of our lives, y'know? I want to be happy, feel like a good mom and wife, have something new to focus on besides m/c and TTC. Travel, enjoy what I DO have, y'know? At least have a little balance in my life.

Like I said, I know it sounds like I've kind of given up on this pregnancy. Maybe in a way I have, but I'm going to try not to feel guilty for that. There's definitely a sliver of hope still left in my heart, and if everything actually worked out this time around, I would forever feel that this baby was 100% a gift from above. And was born in spite of his/her crazy mother. lol

I'm trying hard to keep it together, but it's so hard...

Lurking here every day, looking forward to seeing new (sticky beans only)!!!!!!!!!!

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Sheri

Our miracle, Andrew, born Sept 18/03

Eight angels

Oh Sheri,
I know you must be going through HELL right now with this waiting game!
I hope and pray that your gut is wrong & that your little bean sticks & grows into a very healthy little babe over the next 9 months. You are always at the top of my prayer list.

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It's a miracle!! We got good news!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The baby's doing great!! There's been a week's worth of growth (I'm now 7w2d) and the heartrate has gone from 112 to 148!!!! woooooooooohooooooooooo

I had to wait 2 1/2 hours once I got there. It felt like an eternity and I'd prepared myself for the worst. When the dr said, "Wow!!!! Your baby is doing GREAT!!!!" I was shocked and stunned. I cried (of course!!!) and hugged the doc. It's just been so hard to risk the hurt again, but I'm going to do my best to keep my worries at bay and keep the faith that we'll be meeting this little one in June. Thanks SO much for your +++ vibes, guys....please keep them coming if you don't mind. I know we're not out of the woods yet but so far so good!

Here's the photo the doc gave me. I have no idea what's what, but isn't he/she cute???? lol



I think of you all every day and will dance with joy to see each of you get your and make PAML your new home.

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Sheri

Our miracle, Andrew, born Sept 18/03

Eight angels

that is awesome news!!!

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Sheri

Awesome news!!! This one's definately a keeper

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Chloe (36)
My : DH (42)
My boy: Justin (8)
My Pretty : Jaiden (6)
My 7 s ~Spreading their wings in Heaven~
(11/03@12.5 wks, 4/04@5 wks, 6/05@5.5 wks, 11/05@4.5 weeks, 05/06@6 wks, 09/06@8.5 wks & 11/06@6.5 wks)
My PG Chart This BOY is definately a kicker!

We are expecting Jett Alexander around July 15, 2008!

Hi friends!

Here I am , in more than a little disbelief, still pg at 8 weeks and 2 days (or 8 weeks and 4 days as per u/s)

I had my first u/s last Thursday, after what was a very long, and difficult wait. I had days in tears and days I was fighting to keep sane it seemed..but there was the baby, on the screen, with a nice strong h/b of 178 bpm!!

I have another u/s in 2 weeks. In the meantime, here is the scan pic of my little bean. The black spot on his/her head, is the brain, and not a 'hole' as I am so glad the u/s tech pointed out!! Like I needed something else to worry about!!
Looking forward so much to greeting you all on the PAML board.
Hugs to each and every one of you xoxo

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Fiona


DS Brad 27/11/04 (7 wks early C/sec)
DS Lewis 19/06/07 38 weeks 2 days (C/Sec-Breech)


Missing my angels
30 Jan 06 - 5 wks 5 days
13 Mar 06 - 4 wks 5 days
16 May 06 - 8 wks 5 days (Trisomy 16)
22 Aug 06 - 4 wks 2 days

Fiona!! I'm SOOO glad that all is good!
We miss you here, but do NOT want you back! My heart is thrilled that you're on your way to telling your little miracle's birth story.
Please keep us posted on your next scan!! (And post a new pic, k?)

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Sheri

Our miracle, Andrew, born Sept 18/03

Eight angels

Hi all,
Back from the doctor appointment. He saw a gestational sac and a fetal pole. We found out the bleeding is from the progesterone aggrivating my cervix. He put me on a pelvic rest aka no nooky for hubby until at least 10 weeks and then we will evaulate it again.
We go back next monday for another ultrasound.
He did have us a little freaked though. He was trying to figure out if it was 1 gestational sac and a shadow or 2 sacs. He was pretty sure it was just one, but he said we will keep an eye on "what develops."
So far so good.
Nicole

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DH (33)
DS (13)
DD (12)

5 Angel Babies watching over our family!


3/8/08 Turned in dossier - waiting for a referral from Russia!
4/24/2008 Referral accepted for baby Ryan!! Wating to bring our boy home!

Hi again everyone!

I had a u/s yesterday, and saw my darling baby jumping about (I think he/she really didn't like the sound waves) We could see fingers, and little feet, a darling little button nose. WOW, for the first time it really hit me. I have been really emotional since. I can't believe that I am still pregnant! That we will actually be meeting this little one in June. It was a wonderful day
Baby was measuring 11 weeks and 6 days and h/b was good at 158.

I am feeling ok. Pgy sxs still there, not too bad, tiredness and nausea mainly.
I will not be going to the mm/c clinic anymore, and have been handed over to my own doc who I saw today.
As I have had PIH and a pre-term labour (33 wks) before. I am considered high risk. Means I will have more checks and u/s's as time goes on. I do worry about my cervix, and hope it'll stay shut till at least 36 weeks (Brad was very tiny and very sick when he was born) I have been having a lot of discomfort from my cervix, and that worries me, but dr checked today and said all feels normal. My thyroid levels are a little high, I am hoping they don't worsen. I will be having regular checks for that also.
I am so happy and thrilled to be pregnant, but realise this is probably going to be a stressful time until I am finally holding my baby in my arms.

I still think about you all often, and am hoping to see a nice rush of BFP's for the new year. We are keeping a comfy chair for each of you at PAML ! ((hugs))

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Fiona


DS Brad 27/11/04 (7 wks early C/sec)
DS Lewis 19/06/07 38 weeks 2 days (C/Sec-Breech)


Missing my angels
30 Jan 06 - 5 wks 5 days
13 Mar 06 - 4 wks 5 days
16 May 06 - 8 wks 5 days (Trisomy 16)
22 Aug 06 - 4 wks 2 days

Go! Go, la