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This is a discussion on Shilo, Tai, anybody within the 2WW forums, part of the Trying to Conceive - General Discussion category; Okay so I posted on cycle buddies b/c I figured I might get a quick response... BUT This morning ...
Okay so I posted on cycle buddies b/c I figured I might get a quick response... BUT This morning I just cried and cried and cried.. I am so depressed! I keep thinking about not being pregnant and its getting me waay down. SO I finally got the courage to call my doctor and make an appt. to discuss fertility options. I thought"well I call now and get an appt in a few weeks or so." BUT they had someone cancel and I got an appt at 130 today! So how do I approach this without sounding like a freak? haha I dont want him to think Im an emotional wreck.. but I am. Ya know? Plus dh is in Oklahoma for work and he wont be back until tonight! So Im by myself.
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Me 21
DH 22
#1 DD born still at 26 weeks
#2 Early m/c @ 5 weeks
I don't think anything you could say would be worse than some of the things he has heard. Just be honest and tell him everything. I can't even count the amount of times I broke down in the RE's discussing fertility stuff. Good luck! KUP!
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TTC 8+ years
2003- 3 unmedicated IUI's w/o monitoring
2004- 3 50mg Clomid cycles w/o monitoring
2007- 3 100mg Clomid cycles w/ monitoring and Ovidrel Trigger
11/11/07
1/4/08 U/S confirmed Missed M/C
1/9/08 D&C
March & April 2008- 100mg Clomid cycles w/monitoring and Ovidrel
May 2008- Follistim+Ovidrel
5/29
6/3- Chemical Pregnancy
Well he ended up putting me on lexapro. He gave me all the samples in the office and he told me when I start running out catch him when Im at work (I work in L&D) and he would go to his office and get more samples so I didnt have to go get the prescription filled. Then I got my progesterone, prolactine, and throid levels drawn. So I guess Ill get those results tomorrow. He was so nice about it. Anyways, he said since my cycles are regular and I seem to be ovulating just fine, we will wait and see. Then he game me an almond joy when I was leaving the office and told me everything would be okay. So it was not bad at all. I just didnt want to be a pain in the hiney.. ya know? I just feel relieved to have talked to him about it.
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Me 21
DH 22
#1 DD born still at 26 weeks
#2 Early m/c @ 5 weeks
Please read this Lexapro and Pregnancy - LoveToKnow Pregnancy
Although i think it's great you are getting the bloodwork done, i think maybe Lexapro is jumping the gun. Once you are taking it, great care needs to be taken before going off it, and being on it is not a good idea during pregnancy. Depression is generally being sad with no real cause.. feeling blue and unable to shake it. When depression interferes with your life, socially and at work, then it is time to talk to a professional.
TTC however is a very stressful time, and i cant help but think that you arent clinically depressed hon, you are merely responding to a very stressful situation.
SSRI's have been proven to bring about DNA chromatin damage in the sperm. Chromatin is the genetic material the sperm incorporates with the egg’s genetic material to create a baby.Terabyte Triangle.
And we are still unsure as to how it affects the female dna. It permanently damages male dna, and this can possibly even be passed down to the children he fathers. (i know youre not male, lol.. im just saying, if SSRI's can do this to men, what does it do to the rest of us?)
Also another article here Washington State Magazine
Im sorry to come off sounding so negative, im just surprised that a doctor that is supposed to help you with fertility is giving you sumthing that can harm an unborn child. Of course you can quit taking it when you get pregnant, but SSRI's are NOT fun to come off of.
I worked at a dr office for a few years, and the drug reps that drop off Effexor, Lexapro, etc, they keep track of their office samples, and some of the drug companies offered incentives like trips etc to doctors who went through a high volume of samples. I swear this is true. It made me sick.
*note: Im sorry for not responding earlier, i was having a hard time getting onto SheKnows, the pages wouldnt load.
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Shilo ~ Co-Host of The 2WW
Mom of 4~19,15,14 & almost 1
Expecting #5 (t/r baby#2) Jan 13th
Yeah we talked about it and when I get pregnant Im supposed to stop taking it. The benefits outweight the risks. Im having a hard time with the loss of my daughter and working in L&D and not getting pregnant.Ive actually needed it for a long time, I was just too stubborn to take anything. I dont know... you didnt come off negative. Just warning me! I understand.... anyways... when the levels get back Ill post them and see what yall think
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Me 21
DH 22
#1 DD born still at 26 weeks
#2 Early m/c @ 5 weeks
hon, if you are depressed, then do what you need to do to feel ok.
Just know that being depressed over the loss of your daughter is natural and shouldnt necessarily be masked over.
One thing with todays society, is we seem to try to make people think its not ok to be sad.... of course it is.
You see it on tv, a pill for anxiety, a pill for weight loss, a pill for depression, a pill for sleeping.... as humans, we are meant to go through the stages that we go through.
A quote that comes to mind.
"Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for the evolution of your consciousness. How do you know this is the experience you need? Because this is the experience you are having at this moment"
When we cover everything up, or try to escape the way we feel, who knows if we are really only postponing something that needs to take its time.
In no way does my experience compare, but i was on Paxil for awhile, and while i was on it, things went great. i felt good, ditched a bad relationship, got rid of some negative people etc... and then i went off it. And i was fine, BUT as time passed, i realized there were alot of unresolved issues.I couldnt feel pain when i was on Paxil, and it caught up with me afterwards. Don't be afraid to be sad. And know that you have every freaking right to be sad. And even to have a pity party from time to time. You have been through alot. Embrace it. Maybe some things in your life need to be adjusted to allow you to heal. Even if the adjustment is only temporary. And maybe, once you heal, both your heart and spirit, maybe then your body will know it is time to conceive again.
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Shilo ~ Co-Host of The 2WW
Mom of 4~19,15,14 & almost 1
Expecting #5 (t/r baby#2) Jan 13th
Beautifully put... I agree. Im debating at the moment. BUT I believe everything will work out. Thank you so much for your kind words. No one has ever really told me its okay to be sad and throw a pity party. I was just expected to be strong and deal. Again thank you and Ill for sure think about all of it and see it I really need it or not.
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Me 21
DH 22
#1 DD born still at 26 weeks
#2 Early m/c @ 5 weeks
Shilo, Tai, anybody
silly ticker you should say "weight gained" not "weight loss" 
