New here... Beta 7/30

amycnd · #1 (**permalink**) 07-27-2007, 12:27 PM

I'm 27 and my DH is 31. We were married in May of 2006. Dx with endo six years ago, I had taken Lupron for six years, off-protocol. Knowing I was getting married and then wanted to have children, I went off Lupron (Nov. 2005) and went on continuous bcps until May 2006. After stopping cbcps, AF returned 28 days later. In the next two cycles, AF arrived 37 days apart. The fourth cycle, AF never arrived. After testing and using Provera to bring on my cycle, we had our first IUI on Nov. 2nd 2006. That ended in a miscarriage in December 2006. Did egg retrieval in May 2007, developed OHSS after producing 32 eggs. Had to discontinue IVF. Froze four embies. Now in waiting for our beta. We are also in the process of buying our first house (settlement is August 3rd!). Needless to say, I am stressed out! Any words of wisdom will be appreciated. Any advice out there for "the wait?" Beta is 7/30. Are there signs/symptoms I should look out for? Any advice/info is greatly appreciated!

THANK YOU!

Niffle · #2 (**permalink**) 07-27-2007, 12:36 PM

Welcome! I wish I had some advice for you. The wait can be excruciating. We'll be here for virtual hand holding until then.

moonrise · #3 (**permalink**) 07-27-2007, 03:28 PM

Hi!

to the 2ww!

Am i understanding that your beta you are waiting for is to determine pregnancy? Does this mean that you did have one last ivf?
Signs or symptoms.. hmmm.. EVERYTHING feels like a possible symptom while waiting, hehe.. it is sooo frustrating! Glad you found us here, feel free to share as much as you feel comfortable with.

amycnd · #4 (**permalink**) 07-27-2007, 04:57 PM

Yes, sorry, FET 7/17. TTC #1

moonrise · #5 (**permalink**) 07-27-2007, 05:03 PM

aaahhh! That makes sense!

Thanks!!!
so you are ten days post transfer? how exciting! Have you taken an hpts yet?

amycnd · #6 (**permalink**) 07-28-2007, 02:54 PM

Since this is my first FET, I didn't think I should take a hpt. My DH wanted me to so I did on Thursday... but only he looked at the result. :-) The hpt came with two tests so we'll do the other one tomorrow morning. I'm not sure if I look at it or not. That will be 12 days after FET... not sure if it's even worth it!

May · #7 (**permalink**) 07-28-2007, 04:55 PM

GL Amy, I hope you get your BFP!!

amycnd · #8 (**permalink**) 07-29-2007, 05:52 AM

I caught a glimpse of the hpt this morning right after I took it. It was bfn. Does it matter that my fmu was three hours before I took the test? (TMI: I woke up at 5:30am, urinated into a cup, went back to sleep, and then took the test three hours later) Also, I wonder if someone out there can tell me there is still hope that the beta tomorrow brings a bfp!

amycnd · #9 (**permalink**) 07-30-2007, 04:26 PM

I am just a mess. I don't know what to do. I feel completely lost. My beta came in at ZERO. Neither of the two embies implanted... I have stayed on top of my stupid injections, watched what I was eating, and took it easy for the last two weeks... but NOTHING. I can't handle the rejection anymore. Many of you, it seems, have at least one child and all we want is our first. I go back to work in a few weeks (i'm a teacher) and the stress from work will just make things worse. I think it's hard because there is nothing wrong with either myself or my husband... undiagnosed infertility. Therefore, there is nothing we can "fix." Why would we want to thaw our only two embies that we have left if the same thing can happen again??? Without knowing what happened... it's pointless. I feel very, very low right now. It seems even worse than when I had my mc. AHHHHHHHH...

crazymama · #10 (**permalink**) 07-30-2007, 06:21 PM

I am sooooo sorry you didn't get a sticky bean. There is nothing I can say that will make you feel any better. I have been in the frame of mind you are in. My first took me 4 1/2 long hard years to concieve. I had one loss about a year before he was concieved... but I didn't know about it until it was too late. I remember seeing all these women with a slew of children tagging along behind them... and all I wanted was 1.. just 1! Then alot changed in my life, and that one I had struggled for just wasn't enough anymore. So I struggled again to give my new husband a child of his own. I knew the fight I was in for... and honestly didn't want to marry him because I knew he wanted a family, and I wasn't sure I had it in me to give to him. We tried for the 8 months before we got married, and continued trying half heartedly after we were married. We decided that it just wasn't going to happen without help. We were trying to decide what course of action we wanted to take when I concieved naturally 6 months after we got married. I just want to give you a great big (((((((((((hug)))))))))))), and tell you never to give up hope.

My3babes · #11 (**permalink**) 07-30-2007, 07:34 PM

I am so sorry mama!! Maybe the IVF board can have more info.. But I know several mamas here locally that go on to have successful IVFs after completely Unsuccessful ones.... So sorry

Mom2DerekSam&Ally · #12 (**permalink**) 07-30-2007, 11:22 PM

I just wanted to give you a big ((((HUG))))! I know that there is nothing I can say to lessen this pain for you and I have no real works of wisdom to offer.

If only a few words held so much weight!

I can only say that I am sorry for all that you are going through right.

moonrise · #13 (**permalink**) 07-31-2007, 07:42 AM

I'm so sorry.
One thing I have learned after being on this board for the past year+, is that it is AMAZING and unfortunate how common undiagnosed infertility is. At the Due in August section that I go to, there are quite a few women pregnant or who have just given birth after years and years of ttc and unsuccessful ivf. It will happen for you hon. I am so sorry that you are on this emotional roller coaster. IVF costs alot, not just money-wise but emotionally as well.