Sorry gals,

But I just have to vent, my mum has been here since saturday and has been really helpful. Whenever she comes up to help, I dont know if she gets bored or just cant be bothered to stick around, she makes some crap excuse to go back to London. Then thinks of a reason how it could be my fault that she has to leave.

She offered to make my kitchen curtains months and months ago and the material was bought but we just never got around to doing it, she said lets do it now and I said fine. Followed by which she said that covered cushions in the same material would look nice on the dinning chairs, which is great except it really isnt something i've thought about and I'm not in great need for, so I said fine I humoured her and bought the material.

I had already asked her to stay till Thursday when Christopher would be at little bunnies and we could go shopping together and have a fun day, she said yes. This morning she insists that she is going to spend the rest of today making the cushions, I told her that it's really not something I need right now, and i would more than likely only get them out for guests, but she said that she wanted to get it done before she left early tomorrow morning!

I then realise she doesnt want to stay for the shopping trip, but wants to get home for her Dentist appt on Friday morning. So my attitude is If you really dont want to be here, then I dont want you here! She continues to "get the cushions finished before she leaves" DS starts playing with the sewing machine and nearly catches her finger in the machine, I get really annoyed and take DS out shopping for 3 hours so she can finish her work. I buy lunch for everyone and come home to be faced with a sulking person who tells me she's not hungry! and she's refusing to talk to me.

I eat lunch and then DS starts playing with the sewing machine again, I take him outside for another hour to play football. When I come in she tells me to find out what time the trains are as she is going home now! we have a blazing argument over "my attitude towards her" and I tell her my door is open to all that WANT to come and if she doesnt she can leave. She continues to tell me that if she had known before she had children what she knows now she would not have had so many! (me & my brother) I told her she should have aborted me like she did her other 4 and not listened to the doctor who convinced her otherwise, she says she should have done and that her life would have been a lot easier!

By this time i've had enough and I dont want to talk to her, she gets ready to go and asks when my DH will be home, I dont answer her and then says that he must be working late and says she's going, kisses DS goodbye and shouts "Goodbye" as she walks out the door! I am so mad at her, I dont care that she didnt even know where the bus stop was or how to get to the nearest town to get the train home back to London. DH arrived 10 mins later and drove around to find her but couldnt see her anywhere, she must have found a bus and gone.

I wont ring her, and I know she isnt going to ring either, it's a shame really because she's going to miss out on meeting her new grandson, untill she decides she wants to call me or come round here, after what she said I really dont care, and it's making me colder towards her each time we argue. it's getting to a point where i'm starting to care less and less about her everytime. My only fear is that soon there will be nothing left!

I so very sorry that this has been so long, but I guess I just needed to see it all written down to get it out of my system, thanks.

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Anderson ~ 7th Oct 2005
EDD 8th Nov


Christopher ~ 8th Nov 2001
EDD 9th Dec


Patrick & Dawn ~ Met 24th Jan 1991

Dawn, I wish I knew what to say to help. It sounds like your mum lost her temper and said some things that hopefully she doesn't really mean. Talk about the parent being the child!

I hope your mum calms down soon and realises that she'll be the one missing out if she doesn't see her grandsons.

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Mummy to Luke & Connor

Thanks for the hugs Karen, I needed them today, for some reason I'm feeling quite emotional. She thinks she wont need to ring me as she is expecting that I will call her to let her know when the baby arrives. She's wrong! the way I feel about her right now I dont even want her near me, I'll let her find out the baby had arrived from other friends.

I think I may have got some contractions this morning, but they seem to have stopped now, it was wierd as I my waters broke first with DS before I started getting contractions about 13 hrs later.

How are you feeling? is DH still here and there or is he home more these days? How's luke doing?

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Anderson ~ 7th Oct 2005
EDD 8th Nov


Christopher ~ 8th Nov 2001
EDD 9th Dec


Patrick & Dawn ~ Met 24th Jan 1991

Hi Dawn! I'm glad the hugs helped. You really need some real ones, so I hope you get some from your DH.

Those contractions sound hopeful. I had contractions first with Luke, so I know all about wondering if this is it or not. Mine started off so mildly that I wasn't sure what they were at first, especially as I was 2 weeks early and everyone kept telling me that first babies are usually late! I hope things start moving for you soon - get that bag packed just in case!

I had to at the thought of DH being around more. He is definitely in the country until next Wednesday, but after that he's got at least 3 long haul trips before the end of November. I think the only reason he's home at the moment is that he wouldn't dare go anywhere between my birthday and Luke's, especially as we've got both his parents visiting this weekend (at different times because his dad won't be in the same room as his mum). You aren't the only one with parent trouble, but we get on with both his parents they just don't get on with each other.

Luke is great at the moment. Still not talking much, but he's definitely understanding loads. He was kissing my bump yesterday but I'm not sure he really understands that there's a baby in there. He has closed the lid of my laptop at least 3 times while I've been typing this, so it looks like I have to go.

Have some more

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Mummy to Luke & Connor

Wow - that's some argument. I hope you have calmed down since the falling out.

I don't think I could cope with having my mum with me - I struggle when we go and visit for a day or 2.

I hope that she calls you soon to apologise.

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m/c April 2005 - 9weeks

Thanks Ruth, I've managed to calm down and get my thoughts together, and I've come to realise I probably dont want her around me as often anymore, it should work out better that way I think, I just dont need the added stress.

She did text me yesterday to ask a question to which I only gave a reply without asking about her and today she called to ask about fleece materials for the new baby's blanket, again I just answered her. She did ask me how I was to which I just said fine! I dare not tell her of the contractions i've been getting lately, she'll just come up, I'll just let her think that nothing will happen till the 21st!

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Anderson ~ 7th Oct 2005
EDD 8th Nov


Christopher ~ 8th Nov 2001
EDD 9th Dec


Patrick & Dawn ~ Met 24th Jan 1991

It must be hard falling out with her like that, but as you say it's better without the sress.

Which hospital are you going to have the baby in? I only really know the Queen Elizabeth hospital round there mind you haha.

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m/c April 2005 - 9weeks