First of all, I have to say that you must continue to post because your siggy is so adorable!
I understand how you feel. There is so much pressure we put on ourselves sometimes. I'm sure I will be approaching your situation soon-my dh is very supportive and interested, but when bd is maticulously timed, as you said, can be a game killer!
I hope you still post, because you are always so encouraging and positive! I need more of your advice!
Have a relaxing time away from charting-even if it's only for a few days