I have a few, I'm sure everyone does!

I love wild music, but I also love mellow music. I can go anywhere from metal bands, to soft soothing Jazz. Am I the only one? I just love music so much.

I also have a swearing problem. I never use the "F" word or anything, but I will use the "S", "D", and "H E double toothpics" words when I am really mad or stressed. I sometimes use it out of humor as well. I am working so hard not to, but I do slip up at times, lol. I know this is not a good habit.

I also go to church, but I have a weakness. I really dislike it! Isn't that bad? I don't even go for socialisation or anything like that, I go because I know I should be there on Sunday to worship and get the sacrament. It does help me have a better week though. I also have a church calling, me and my dh are the librarians. It's an ok calling. I am happy I have it, but wow, I just wish I liked going to church more than I do! I really dislike being called on in classes to read scriptures or to do anything like that. I have panic attacks or anxiety and they are severe, so stuff like that will trigger an attack. it's awful. I feel so awkward and nervous when I'm at Sunday school or Relief Society. I am hoping no one will call me the whole time, lol. Anyone else? I know I am strange!!!

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I have too many weaknesses, the internet doesn't have enough space for me to list them all. But I too don't care for church, mostly because I feel clueless and lost, and also because I also have huge anxieties over being called on. One time the teacher announced that we were going to break into small groups, and dh and I both looked at each other and panicked. Dh whispered to me "meet me in the car, we'll go to Sonic for a smoothy!" And....we did. I know, I know. But that is how seriously frightening the thought of a small group discussion was to me.

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OMgosh!! Michelle! In my parents ward my guy friends and I used to go to "McSunday School" (aka McDonalds) HAHAHA!!

Man, weaknesses? Like Michelle, I have too many to list. I swear too. Trying to really be careful now that Cohen is getting older. I can just see him screaming in Sacrament "Sh*&" What else...hmm, well, I used to smoke and occasionally if I see someone with a cigarette and I'm really stressed...I'll want one soooo bad. It's hard, but I just try to calm my craving with a sucker or something. I also love rap and stuff. Not soo much anymore, but I do still listen to it when I'm in my car and nothing else is on. I'm also really bad with modesty. I mean I of course wear my "G's" all the time, but I wear bikinis. I don't even own a full piece suit. And I'm always trying to push the limits on how low my top can go. I am sometimes pulling on my "g" top all day to keep it from showing. Horrible I know.

I know that I have alot to work on, one thing at a time though.

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I sometimes find church boring too. I don't like to be called on either because I don't like to pray or speak in front of anyone. I have gotten to know quite a few people in my ward (we've only been here since November) and I like going to see them and socialize. I think if I didn't go, I would feel really guilty because I know I am supposed to be there. It helps if I bring my scriptures and follow along when the teacher or speaker asks you to turn to a certain scripture. That always makes me more involved, but I still find my mind wandering. I like some heavy music too, but music has a huge effect on my mood, so I have to try to listen to uplifting stuff. I probably would have a small problem with modesty too if I was smaller. I always joke to DH that the Lord didn't make me a size 4 because he knows I would dress differently!!

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Definitely in the too many to name group. The swearing is an issue, and I have a really hard time going to Church right now. Our Ward is in the middle of some serious contentions . . . and we only have 130 active members out of 400, so everyone is stretched really thin. I am tired of my calling, and dread doing it. I want something new. Having not grown up in the Church, I would love to stick with Sunday School, but I want to move up an age group so that I can have a new manual (the youngest group has a different manual, and this is my second time through it). So, I don't put as much effort into it as I should. Music is sort of an issue for me . . . I like Eminem, but I only listen to the edited lyrics. I don't ever check ratings on movies . . . the list goes on.

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I guess you could say I also have a lot more weaknesses, that I am just not thinking about at the moment.

I think I should be capable of trying a lot harder, but I feel like I am who I am, KWIM? I feel quite phony when I'm trying too hard to be perfect. Does that make any sense? I'm not sure it's coming out the way I want. At the same time, I wish I could live my life more like the prophet. I know I can't live my life like Jesus, He was and is perfect. I can't even compare my life to His, but I can look up to His life and try my best to be more like Him. I have a lot to work on here in this life.

I also love adjusting my "G's" a little bit in the top area. I also have a bikini, but I never wear it out in public. I used to when my belly was a lot more tone. I just don't feel as fit there to wear it anymore. I guess after 3 kids that will happen. I also wish we didn't have to wear the "G's." I know my dh would like that a lot! Oh well, they are there for a good purpose. I understand why and all, but it's hard! This religion does require a lot from us.

I guess I also have too many weaknesses to list here.

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I know what you mean . . . I used to have a lot of fun sexy underwear . . . I miss those.

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Me too!!! But look at it this way.....now, instead of having to spend $60 on a sexy teddy or whatever from Victorias Secret, you can just buy a cute matching bra and pantie set!! Cheaper, and it has the same effect, since DH is so used to the "G's"!! Or, as a chica at my work calls them "the religion"

Btw~ glad I'm not the only "un-modest" one in the group.

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My weaknesses...hmmm...
I have a hard time saying "no" to people- then I end up feeling resentful doing the things I promised to do.
I have a short fuse with my kids too often- I will snap at them and then feel awful afterward.
I am flighty and have a hard time sticking with boring tasks.
I am bad at sticking to a tight budget- it makes me grumpy.
I dont spend enough time in service to others.
Now as for my past weak areas... I have only been a non smoker for 2 years after 13 years of smoking. I have suffered with anorexia. I have attempted (but not seriously) suicide.I used to be a meth addict and I was also an alcoholic. Im 11 years clean and sober and realize I have a weakness for wanting to escape reality into some perfect world. My world now is as perfect as I could ever dream. My husband joined the church 20 months ago...we have been sealed as a family...I LOVE going to church... I have good friends and a wonderful DH who Im madly in love still.

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Mom to twins- VERONICA & LUKA Shayla, Jaron and Sabrina

Man, I don't think I'd like church very much, either, if I was stuck in the library. I'm sure for some people that is a wonderful calling but I would be going stir crazy!!!!

As far as my weaknesses, well, of course, I don't have any Besides not being able to see my own weaknesses, of course....

Actually, DH and I both are constantly working on not being so flip about people (esp leaning over and making witty but cutting remarks during church...oops). Anyhow, it's so much fun but it really drives the spirit away. We have a much better church experience when we hold our tongues! I am also working on being more patient. Sometimes I have a very short fuse and it is so hard to calm down when I am in that really frustrated place. I'm very aware of it now that I have a little girl who watches me and mimics everything I do. Esp. when I get so mad that I throw the cereal box across the room or something--it just is 100% worse when my little mimic starts venting her own frustrations as poorly as I sometimes do. It was awful when she would get mad and start to literally pull her hair! Thankfully since I have been getting handle on myself she has stopped doing that.

I guess it is both good and bad how our own weaknesses become more visible in the light of our children's gazes!

Marianne

I think I compare myself to others too much. I'm constantly reminding myself that everyone has individual talents and I just need to find mine and help them to grow. I also have a bit of a short fuse w/ dh and dd sometimes. I am really working on that. I'm also bad at reading my scriptures regularly. I try and sometimes I get on a roll, but then I fall off the wagon. It's crazy that I can sit and read another book for 4 hours straight, but I can't take 15 minutes to read the scriptures? Again, I'm working on that.

Oh, and there's the chocolate thing... Mmmmm chocolate...

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I know what you mean here. I've been doing a lot of growing lately, but this has always been an issue for me and I'm trying to get through it now. Love or hate Dr. Phil as you may, but his book, Self Matters has been really helpful. Makes me shine a flashlight on me and my life.

I have lots of weaknesses, but I'm in a new stage in my life where I'm trying to go on the scripture that a weakness can be turned into a strength. I'm not quite sure how all of them could turn into a strength, but I'm sure they can. For instance, I snap at my kids and then feel awful afterwards (I know what you mean, Angiemom). I don't believe in myself enough, even if I've proven capable in the past on the same matter. My weaknesses are internal and self-defeating (I suppose all weaknesses are). I don't have a lot of problems with Church or much of anything else outside of myself

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Angela

This is a good thread!!

Let's see...I find church boring as well. I go because you are supposed to. If I have a calling it makes it better but I don't think they are going to give me one for awhile yet. Dh travels and it's me and the 3 kids. Reagan just turned 1 and is cranky at church.

I try to find any reason to not go or to leave early! LOL Reagan's nap schedule is right after sacrament so I leave and go home. I leave the kids there and we walk back to pick them up.
When DH is home he makes me stay though! He goes home w/her.

I cuss to much as well. Not the F word!! I hate that word w/a passion. I'm sure my kids will say SH**, damn, hell, you know!! LOL

When DH is gone I sometimes go places on Sudays'. Haven't done that in a LONG time. We went to Sonic this past Sunday and gassed up. BAD!!!

Since having the 3 kids I dont' have the great bod but I hate finding shorts that cover the G's!!!
I don't have FHE! No particular reason. I mostly forget about it!!!

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Sugar is my weakness! I LOVE sweets and if I try to go off of them I never succeed for long! I still need to overcome that. I know it sounds simple but it is a huge issue for me!

I've definitely watched more than one rated R show although I've been alot better about it since having children.

I too struggle with scripture study, I get on a roll and do great and then the next thing I know it's been a week or more, yet like Katie I can read other books for hours at a time.

I too get bored at church (especially the last half hour of nursery), I don't like to be called on to do stuff either.

I'm not especially fond of wearing garments until I sit back and think of the reason I am wearing them. I wear tankini's, not bikini's because I would feel too self conscious in one of those!

I get short with the kids at times too and feel horrible after just like Ang said. That is sometimes the reason I think I shouldn't have more. I also let them watch too much TV.

Back in my freshman year of college 10 years ago now I was on the basketball team and a bunch of us got tattoo's of the Nike swoosh on our foot, me included, one of my biggest regrets and I'm totally self-conscious about it. I only wear sandals to church that cover it!

I know the list could go on and on but I just can't think right now!!

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You know, I keep coming back to this post, because it is so refreshing to see that others have the same struggles I do. You go to Church every week (or at least I do), and I assume I am the only one with these issues . . . I do have some friends that I know have similar issues, but I feel then that we are the 'rebels' . . . KWIM? It is good to hear that I'm not alone . . . THANKS!

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I'm a huge procrastinator. I procrastinate EVERYTHING. Huge weakness.

I am lazy, and it doesn't help that I can get DH or even sometimes DD to do something for me like go get something out of a different room.

I hate being around people that talk like General Relief Society Presidents. My current RS President is one such person. She really grates on my nerves just because of the way she talks. It sounds so fake to me, although I know it most likely isn't.

I hate saying anything in a group setting, I get all shaky and unsure of myself...therefore I never speak up in SS/RS, or very very rarely at the book club a few RS sisters put together. I just sit and listen. I can hardly pay attention during Sacrament Meeting - if Melinda's behaving herself, then DH and I will play a doodle game to keep ourselves awake.

I pretty much don't control what I eat. If there's a bag of candy and I'm not paying attention, I can eat the whole thing in one sitting Such a big sweet tooth!

Scripture Study/Prayer - DH and I have finally gotten to a point where we're reading our scriptures (almost) daily together, and we now have family prayer when we're putting Melinda down, but I still don't say any personal prayers unless I'm desperate, and I don't really "study" the scriptures, I just read them...and maybe ask DH a question if I don't get something, because he usually does.

I have a short fuse, as well, when DD is being crazy. If she starts hurting me because of being crazy, I will yell at her and I always feel horrible about it, because I know if I were doing something more interesting with her, she wouldn't be acting so crazy. But there comes the lazy part again - it's so much easier to sit down than to be creative and come up with something interesting to do.

There's a lot more I could include, but those are foremost in my mind. Nothing like putting it all in one list to make a gal feel guilty, lol.

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DH Jesse
DD Melinda, Oct. 16, 2003
DS Jacob, Aug. 14, 2005
#3 due March 26, 2008

I have a tattoo, too, Jer! And the sad thing is that I don't regret it in a personal way. I wouldn't do it again in a million years, but I don't feel sad about it. The only thing that bothers me is that the kids see it when I take them potty with me and they say "Snoopy!" And DS says "I want Snoopy, too!" (the tattoo is on my hip). That makes it regrettable because I don't want them to want one when they're teens (how, oh how am I going to explain the other bad things in my past if they come up later???)

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Angela

Oh man...I am sooo glad you posted this Lisa!! How refreshing to know that I am not the only "rebel" here.

As I am reading the other posts, I find myself nodding, saying "Oh ya..me too."

I don't have a tatoo, but I really want one. Not that I would ever do it, not sure what to get or were to put it. But....still....

I am very bad at Scripture study. And, are you ready for this.......I have never read the BOM. *shock and awe* I know. Isn't that awful? I mentioned this to my MIL the other day and I thought the woman would fall right out of her chair. DH has read it several times, only because he went on a mission tho, otherwise I think he to would have never read it. We try to do SS each nite, but the past few years, with a new baby and now DH in school every nite until 10 then up for work at 6am....its really been tough. We havent read them together in a loooooooonnng time.

I also judge people. I am really trying hard to stop this, but it's been tough. It's like if I see a person come into my store, and I take one look at them and I think.."They can't afford to buy anything..they are gonna go right for the sales rack" And then they shock me and buy like $200.00 worth of stuff. So.....I've been trying very hard to stop that. It's been a downfall of mine for as long as I can remember.

I know that I have others, and I think that by writing them out here...it is actually helping me to face them...and work thru them.

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