I will certainly pray for you.
It is not easy being where you are but at times we have to cry out, we have to force ourselves to read the Word and pray. Put praise music on, it really does bring us thru these times.
You need to have fellowship with fellow christians. When hard times come, my natural reaction is to want to withdraw from everyone and hide but i know that is not the right thing to do. I remember a time when i was crying out to God to let me hide, to go back in the cupboard and nail it shut so i never had to come out again. He refused to do so lol. It all takes effort and its incredibly difficult at the time but God will give you that strength, the desire, all you have to do is obey, tho that is not always easy either.
When David was going thru difficult times, along with everyone else in the bible, he cried out to God in such heart aching honesty. Jesus did it on the cross. We are to do the same. John Lennon once said that if you are drowning you dont ask in a nice polite way if someone would be willing to help you when they are not too busy, you scream at the top of you lungs "HELP!!!!!!!" to whoever is nearby.
One of my favourite Psalms is
Ps 143
1 O LORD, hear my prayer,
listen to my cry for mercy;
in your faithfulness and righteousness
come to my relief.
2 Do not bring your servant into judgment,
for no one living is righteous before you.
3 The enemy pursues me,
he crushes me to the ground;
he makes me dwell in darkness
like those long dead.
4 So my spirit grows faint within me;
my heart within me is dismayed.
5 I remember the days of long ago;
I meditate on all your works
and consider what your hands have done.
6 I spread out my hands to you;
my soul thirsts for you like a parched land.
Selah
7 Answer me quickly, O LORD;
my spirit fails.
Do not hide your face from me
or I will be like those who go down to the pit.
8 Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love,
for I have put my trust in you.
Show me the way I should go,
for to you I lift up my soul.
9 Rescue me from my enemies, O LORD,
for I hide myself in you.
10 Teach me to do your will,
for you are my God;
may your good Spirit
lead me on level ground.
11 For your name's sake, O LORD, preserve my life;
in your righteousness, bring me out of trouble.
12 In your unfailing love, silence my enemies;
destroy all my foes,
for I am your servant.
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For me it sums up the really difficult times that we all go thru. However verse 5 is, for me, the key verse
I remember the days of long ago;
I meditate on all your works
and consider what your hands have done.
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Just reflect on your walk with God and all that he has done for you. Its amazing how that helps us come back to him. God is a God of love and will answer you. You are a child of God.
You are not the first person to go thru this and you wont be the last.
Dont believe for a second that you wont, you are victorious in Christ.
Im sorry that this is a rambling post and not in a very ordered way. Hopefully something makes sense.
God bless,
Matthew
Prayer please!!=)
for you
