Hi.

I seriously need all your prayers and help. I am suffering from an addicition (i thought it had gone until tonight) and to be honest i like it but it is sin and so it must go now. However it wont give up without a massive fight and along with seeing my pastor asap (its 23:38 here at the moment so i've e-mailed him and asked to see him asap) i know i can post here and you will all help me. Please pray that this stranglehold will be broken and never has a hold on me ever again. To be honest my main concern is hurting Jesus, the body of Christ and my fellowship. In fact i have a lot of demons in my head that constantly i am battling and hopefully this will also lead to them being banished. I dont mean demons telling me to hurt people just that im a loser etc. Also please pray that God will forgive me for what i have done as at this moment i cant and dont think i deserve it. Will stop here and post it.

God bless,

Matthew

Matthew, I will be praying for you, comdenation isn't from God.
God wants to forgive you and loves you.
God is your syrength.
Isaiah 43:25
psalm 103:12
Lamentations 3:22
Daniel 9:9
Romans 8:1-2
Psalm 130:3-4
Colossians 1:13
Isaiah 44:22
Isaiah 38:17
Miach 7:18-19

seeking forgiveness
Psalm 38:18
Psalm 51:7
Isaiah 55:6
Psalm 32:5

repentance and frogivness
1 John 1:9
Paslm 66:18
Ephesians 4:22-24

forgivness and restoration
2 Corinthians 5:17

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Faith in God’s goodness puts a song in your heart and praise on your lips.

May God Bless You!

Wife, to Matt
Mother Ellie, Wo and Zacy

I have a brother that goes through the same things as you, Except he doesnt really do more about to resolve it, And not going to church doesnt help him.


I will pray for you matthew as you truley look like you really love the lord. Even if what ever you are going through is a sin. Jesus loves you and knows what you are worth and he aint giving up on you. He needs more people like you who actually want to turn away from a sin and not live their life too cosy in it.

Praying for you, and please keep us posted as I know you always do. Remeber satan is defeated and he is under your feet.

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I just prayed for you Matthew. You are loved... Please know that our heavenly Father loves you no less, when you sin. You are His son and are precious to Him. As Becky said, condemnation is not from Him. He is Faithful and just to forgive us of our sins and cleanse us from ALL unrigteousness, once we repent. Keep pressing into to Him and the walls will continue to fall down in your life. You have a heart for Him and truly seek/want to please Him. He is there with you always. Lift up a praise and He will manifest His presence even more in your life. I know that you probably know this already, but we all need to be reminded sometimes. He inhabits the praises of His people. Where His presence is there is liberty (freedom/deliverance). Continue to claim and thank Him for setting you free from the shackles (sins) the seek to bind you. Greater is He that is in you than He that in on the world. Keep speaking the Word and your mind will continue to be renewed, so that you know without a doubt that you are all that He says you are. Thank Him (by faith) that you have the mind of Christ and see this manifested in your daily life. Don't be too hard on yourself when you fall short Matthew. Confess your sin and repent (turn from it and to God ). God is not finished working with/on you yet. We're all under construction and live through life's processes daily. (((HUGS)))

Crystal

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“…with God ALL things are possible…� ... Jesus

Prayers Matthew, I know that an addiction, of ANY kind are not easy to break, BUT with prayer, Bible study AND support you and God can do it!!

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Shannon

What this has done (and i am no way justifying what i did as right, sin is detestable to God) is show and start to deal with the core roots of the problem. As was made clear to me by God is that if you have drinking problem there are reasons for that. Stopping drinking is not the solution to the overall problem, all you are doing is cutting off the result and not dealing with the roots (should make it clear i dont have a drink problem) which means that it grows back again in time.

Thru what happened i have been able to speak here, confess it and get prayer and support. I have also began to speak to the pastor, tho we only got skin deep there is a way to go. Whats happening in Calvary is that we all have blockages in our pipes and now is the time to get rid of them thru Gods help. Its only thru God that i can do this.

I have a very high feeling of lack of self-worth and a very poor self-image of myself and its something that is key to everything in my life at this moment. I do at times find it very very difficult to understand (and believe) that i have got family here and at Calvary who are there at all times and will not call me an idiot or just say anything to make it better. I havent had that before. My family were there but were never approachable and because it was worldly help it didnt solve anything. I couldnt speak to them. Only now am i becoming more able to do this and its only thru Gods enablement and Christ coming into my life. I went to counselling for 5 weeks but got absolutely nowhere as i couldnt discuss it and it was pointless and probably did more harm than good. After giving my life to Jesus i finally became able to discuss it and got further in 3 discussions with a different Pastor then ever before. The only type of help that works is thru Christ and God.

The daftest thought was that i was the one who was the reason for the blockage.

Thanks so much for all your support and prayers. Its a blessing having a family online where i can share everything and not feel like i have to hide anything. Its all about getting rid of the past and moving on in the lives that God has planned for us all.

God bless,

Matthew

ita with the pp - and Matthew, you have a really good understanding of what it really means to deal with an addiction issue. getting at the roots is really key - and the Lord will help you to do that.

praying for you tonight.

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It was only revelation from God. For so long i have been battling the result not the root and getting nowhere.

God bless,

Matthew