Hi to all I just needed someone to talk too and share my story. I am a 34 year old mother of 4 and my youngest is 20 months after she was born I decided to have the mirena IUD placed because I was pretty sure I was done having babies but 3 days ago I began bleeding and cramping very severe cramping and I was not sure what was wrong thinking there was no way I was pregnant. I went to the emergency room and after waiting 2 1/2 hour they did a urine pregnancy test and it was positive immediately I was very sad because I knew that there was definitely something wrong. The pain was so severe I thought I was dying and maybe I was close to it. My BP was 74/40 because of the amount of blood I was loosing. Without pain medication I had to lie still for a 30 minute intravaginal ultrasound. The tech told me right away he could not tell or discuss anything with me. ( I was alone because my husband was on his way from work to the hospital) The U/S room was so quite you could hear a pin drop except for the times I cried out in pain. I was so devistated. I was moved to a room in the ER and left and was told they were consulting a ob/gyn I had no clue if I was miscarrying or if I had a more severe problem. And then I waited about another 2 hour at this time I had received morphine for the pain but still had no clue what to expect and then the dreaded news that I was sure I already knew but was to scared to face. I had an ectopic pregnancy that the ob was not sure if it had ruptured and I needed to go into surgery quickly. I was scared but at the same time I began feeling a great sense of loss. I am not sure why because I was pretty sure I did not want more children but I was hurting for this baby that was about to lose his or her life. Why? I began to as myself. I remember going into surgery and I then remember waking up in the recovery room and that is where I felt the most pain not physical but emotional because I had just lost something that could never be replaced something that I did not even know was there until hours before but had already become attached too. The nurse in recovery was rude and there was no sensitivity on her part. I don't know if I have the right to feel this way since I had not planned this pregnancy but now 2 days later I am still mourning and along with feeling like I went through labor but there is no baby I am very sad. I don't think I can talk to anyone in my family because they are just happy that I am safe. But I am hurting. I feel a great sense of loss. Thank you for taking the time to read this long post. keep me in your prayers and my little angel in heaven . May he or she rest in peace. Only a mere 8 weeks gestational age.

I am sorry for your loss and how scary it was . A loss of a pregnancy is normal to hurt no matter when the loss occured because a postive test can bring anyone excitement even if it's just for a moment -i been there before with two losses and I send you alot of prayers and hugs your way.

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Traci
Mommy to Brendan August 4, 2004


My angels in my heart forever and in my father(8-26-87) loving arms Alizah 6-18-02 Trey Feb 2003 surrounded by my 2 guinea pigs Felecia feb 9 2003 and patchy 6/2004








Brendan and Blackie

How scary! Sorry to hear about your loss..

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I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. It is definetly scarey. I just had that same birth control put in..... I was told that could happen and you always think that can't happen to me and i guess it can happen to anyone. My prayers are with you!

Sorry to hear about your loss. I will pray for your little one and you.
Hope you feel better soon =)

piggymomma2brendan, im sorry sorry to hear about your babies! I can't even begin to imagine how you feel. it's so great that you pulling through.

p.s.
you son looks precious!