Hello,

I need someone to pray for me soooo bad. I cheated twice once before we were married he was in Korea and then I cheated on my husband in 2005 when I went away to school. I cant tell you why he is a good man a great father and husband. I tried to put it behind me but I emailed the guy when I returned home. My husband broke into my email and found out. I lied to him and told him that I did not sleep with the guy. It was hard but we were working it out. He kept on confronting me over and over again he said I know something happend tell me and I kept on lying. Well this went on for a year. We were really getting back to normal when he called me from work on christmas day 06 our sons brithday. He was so angry and saying I know something happend tell me and so I did. I thought it was the right thing to do. I had been thinking telling him because I felt I would have a secret for the rest of my life. He instantly said he wanted a divorce and he was leaving. I was devestated. He then told me about a woman he was seeing also he said he slept with her and that added salt to my wounds. I was angry because he was with her when we were trying to work out our marriage. And I know the girl on top of it all. He is still with her and I know he never stopped talking to her on the phone because I checked the phone records. He justifys it by saying he only did it because I did it. Well I find out that I am pregnant so he already told me that nothing would make him stay so when I told him he left and said he was going to look for an apartment. He cant forgive me because he said I have on concience and I am a liar and a cheater. I understand that but we are going to have another baby. I feel like I should have kept the lie going and I shouldnt have told him. He meant everything to me and I am an emotional wreck. He is moving out tomorrow, and I dont know what I am going to do. He has already moved on he has all these women he talks to and I look at his phone and the same girl he was messing with while we were together he is text messening her how he is thinking about her. I see this girl everyday and I want to kill her. I am so depressed I ruined our lives together. I know they way I am feeling is all my fault but why cant he take my back we are going to have two kids together. I do everything for him I know I made a life changing decision I wish I could take back. He is serious about leaving I am so scared he will never take me back. I feel that this is so easy for him because he already had a back up. He had her the whole time he seems so happy about his new life. I was crying the other day and he had the nerve to say your not still upset about me leaving are you. I wanted to hit him. I forgot to mention that this is my 6th time being pregnant and I only have one baby. So this is a blessing and I think it is a sign for us but of couse he doesnt see it that way because he has all these women lined up. He is not even acting like he gives a damn. He will see all I did for him. On day I hope. I just want him back. Please pray for me and help me get some strenth because it is so hard to get up everyday. And I have the worst all day sickness and a two year old to deal with. I feel he got off scott free. He is already dating and he is able to move on with his life and I cant. I am pregnant and have a son so where does that leave me. Alone that is where. Please help me.