Hi There,
I'm new to this message board and message boards in general.

I have a little girl who will turn 2 very soon. I want a baby brother or sister for her so very much...

My husband and I both turned 40 this year and have been trying unsuccessfully for the past 3 months to get pregnant again. To many of you I'm sure that doesn't seem like much. But, you see we've agreed to let "nature take its course" wrt having another child and will not be seeking any fertility treatments. Given our age - given my age - the odds are against us now.

Whenever folks ask, I put on a brave face and say I'm fine with whatever happens. But the truth is I'm not. Our little girl is so amazingly terrific!! A real blessing (as all kids are) and I'm very grateful to God for bringing her into our lives... so much so that I've been hesitant to pray and ask for a second for fear of seeming unappreciative of how much I already have. (silly huh?)

Yet the thought of not ever having another child depresses me so much... I get mad at the world, I start to view time as the enemy, and I begin to feel very sorry for myself...

That's not the real me, I'm normally so happy and so balanced and so into all of life's joys and pleasures. I've always been the one everyone comes to for help and advice. This time however I'm so muddled and so scared. Could really use the power of prayer to get through this one way or another.

BTW, I don't think I found this forum by accident. I've already found a great deal of hope and peace by simply reading your responses in other threads.

you have a very nice request! I will definately pray for you. I have a friend in my church who has two kids and shes about 37 years old. She wont get fertility treatments and shes trusting God. It took 8 years to conceive her first and 2 1/2 years for her second and now her second is 4 1/2 years old. She says shes okay with it but i know shes not. I know her heart is aching too. I can see her hidden pain to a degree so i think i can understand a bit on how you feel. Thanks for coming to us with your request

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Formerly~Stressedmama/Amanda81~

Amanda-Happily married to James (2/01)
Mom to Sarah 5/98, Mikayla 5/01, Tyler 10/02 and Noah 10/03
and expecting a surprise August 2005.

I will definately be sending prayers. 3 months can seem like an eternity when you are trying to have a child. I will pray that the Lord gives you peace and strength and that things work out as you desire. Hugs

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