sad & confused
I know it's been awhile since I've been online. It's been too hard for me to come on. So here's what has been happening...
About a week after the IUI was done, my lower abdomen began to harden and get big. At first I thought it was wishful thinking, but then my wife noticed and my close friends did too. I had some possible symptoms, light cramping nausea, metal mouth, swollen breasts (and I still have these). So the wife and I began to start thinking maybe we were lucky enough to conceive on the first cycle. But one thing always concerned me during the 2WW, where was the implantation bleeding? After 13dpiui, I began to give up hope, but there was the growing abdomen so I didn't let hope die. At 14dpiui I got a faint BFP. Then at 15dpiui, I had brown spotting, but not red as when AF normally starts. I decided to wait a bit to see if the flow increased, after two bathroom visist with nothing when I wiped, I saw some red. I called around and was told to go to the ER. when I got there I did a PG test, came back negative. They did a blood test, came back <5mL, so another negative. They couldn't explan why my abdomen was hard and when they did a pelvic exam they said everything was normal. Went home with no answers. The next day my flow increased alot, my lower abdomen still hard and getting bigger as the week went on. But then my flow changed to the brown discharge 2 days before it normally does. That's when everyone I know said they know someone who had the period for 3 months into their pregnancy, that's when I called my general doc and told him everything, he suggested I go to an OB/GYN...
So here I am with this growing abdomen, gaining weight (visiably), and confused out my mind. I wish I was pregnant but I don't know if I can handle another letdown. My appt is set for this Wednesday, so hopefully they will just do an ultrasound to see whats going on.
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