Okay I am beyond depressed. I started looking at adoption websites to try and cheer up. They nurse was very nice and told me how sorry she was but that the test was negative and when I told her I already knew she asked me did I do a home pg test I told her no I just knew. Again started crying the worst thing is now I still have to go home and tell my DP but I have been telling her all week that I knew the test was going to be negative so I am hoping she is not as disappointed as last time.

I really want to say that I can find the positive or have something positive to say but I don't I just want to cry and scream. I fee like I am whinning I am just so frustrated, depressed, disappointed, confused, sad, angry all at the same time.

The only thing that is giving me a single beam of light is the laposcopy(sp) part of me hope that they say that was a problem and they can fix it. I just don't know what to do if they say there is nothing wrong with you. I feel like I have to make a major decision that I don't want to make.

Is there anyone out there that has been through more than 4 IUI and went to injectable fertility drugs and got pg? God I hate this it really sucks!!

I'm so very sorry. I was really hoping you were going to get good news....

I'm imagining how you are feeling right now....remembering back to all my BFN....

How you are feeling is so understandable.

I suggest you go ahead with the lap as I personally know of 2 people who got pg first cycle after a lap.

I can't type much more now as it is late here and I must get off the computer....but I will pop back soon to see how you are managing.



Jennette

I am so sorry you got a negative. I hope you and your DP come up with the right path to start on after this.... and that you get that child to love... however it comes!

Can you email or PM me your email address... I wanted to email you something?

Thanks!

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I am so sorry you got a negative. I just wanted to say don't discount the feelings you have right now. You are not being a whiner at all. These are hard times and big decisions you need to make. I do hope that you will try the lap and then go from there. If it was me I feel like in the back of my head I would always be wondering and I wouldn't want you to go through that. Know for sure and be confident.
However, whatever decision you make I think in the end you will be so happy. Keep you chin up and take care of yourself....you and your DP should try and do something nice together...something that will bring a smile to your face....

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Thank you for the support. We have decided to go ahead with the lap the only problem is I am taking my DP to New York for her birthday in June and I don't think you are suppose to fly in your first trisemester. Therefore I think we'll have to wait till July the big problem is explaining the delay to my DP since she knows nothing about the trip. I am going to talk to the doctor about traveling cause that would be like one week after insemination. Hummmmmm......

I feel really good about the lap I think that it will answer some questions plus I do bodytalk which helps too. I am so glad this board is here you all help so much.

Choloelee55 not sure how to send you my email address will see if I can figure it out.

Oh I'm so glad we can all provide support for each other.
Talk to your doctor about the flight thing. I think you should be ok, and I think that would be a great distraction for you.
Keep us posted..

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If you cllick on my name- chloelee55 on the header of this message... a dropdown menu comes up and you can choose email me.

Thanks!

Chloe

You can fly in the 1st trimester..and if it is a week after insem you wont even know yet....I say go for it..

Did you do IUI unmedicated? or with meds?

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