Chatty thread

[S&S]

Hi everyone

thanks so much for all your support, it really means a lot. some days I feel like whats the point of this all, and others I am so positive I make myself sick! well I have to say the spa was a great idea, we had facials pedicures breakfast in bed every morning, it was a dream. me & Dp got to remember why we are married again, I feel so happy that I just let go. and what a gay friendly resort!! not one nasty look! So AF showed yesterday, and may I say (TMI) she is making up for lost time! so I called the RE and I go in tomorrow for my cycle day 3 ultrasound. wish me luck!!!

how is everone else doing?

[swell22]

Shannon - I'm so glad you and DP were able to get away and relax. It's so hard to do that sometimes. Hopefully, it will help you stay relaxed through this cycle and you will get your BFP! I know what you mean about thinking "what's the point?" There are times when I think that it hasn't happened yet, so what's going to be different this time? But again, like you, sometimes I just feel like it will. Ah - the emotional roller coaster - fun times! Good luck tomorrow and keep us posted!

[S&S]

so more bad news today. I went to the RE for my cy day 3 ultrasound and I have a large cyst on my left ovary it was so big tey said if it burst I would have damage to the ovary , so I have to start bcp's for 3 weeks and pray to god I am clear next time. i just stayed home alone all day today and cried, I just don't understand how the world works. twelve year old girls can get pregnant, drug addicts, people who don't even want kids...its a hard pill to swallow. everyone around me is pretty much being insensitive so I have no support...It's like iam screaming on the inside and everyone else is like oh well it's just another month chin up. I have been "off" for 4 months already. ok now iam rambling...sometimes I just want to give up.

[2moms2be]

Shannon- sweety, I am so sorry. This just SUCKS! I wish there were something I could say to make you feel better. Waiting stinks, and I cannot even imagine how frustrated you must be at this point. Is there anything you can do to take your mind off of ttc even if its just for an afternoon?

[swell22]

Shannon - I am sooooooo sorry! I'm also sorry that no one IRL is being supportive of you. That's incredibly isolating. Please know that we all know that what you are going through is really really hard. You have every right to feel the way you do. Keep trying the best you can to stay positive (easier said than done, I know.) Waiting SUCKS!!!!

On a me note - did any of you ladies who have had a BFP ever "feel" pregnant (or different). I woke up this morning very sad because I didn't feel pregnant and for some reason I have it in my head that if I was, I would feel something. I think I'm just being neurotic - I'm only 3dpiui - but for some reason I just felt this morning that this wasn't it. I'm trying to stay positive, but am really dreading the huge let-down. It seems that every month my hopes get higher and higher. Anyway, I guess I just wanted to know if anyone ever felt anything (other than things that we probably feel every other month, but miraculously turn into pregnancy symptoms!). Thanks for listening.

[2moms2be]

Suellen- I really did not feel any different then any other month. (another easier said then done) try put your mind on other things as much as possible during the 2ww.

[A Squared]

Shannon, I'm so sorry you had more bad news. Sounds like you need to get out with a supportive friend for an afternoon. I think keeping busy helps a lot.

Suellen, 3 days post IUI is way too early to feel anything! At around 6-7 dpo I had very bad cramps for about a day that I felt in my entire midsection (incuding back). Then, about 10-11 dpo my nose became supersonic and certain things started to smell AWFUL to me, including some mulch I walked by (I still have this symptom). I remember thinking, "maybe this is a sign." However, I was on progesterone so I was never sure if it was just the hormones or actual pregnancy that led to these symptoms. By 12 dpo, I felt hopeless and thought I couldn't possibly be pregnant. 13 dpo I tested and had a VERY DARK line. The bottom line is that your "gut" isn't always right! Heck, mine was right part of the time and then it wasn't right. Anyway, I think for some of us (me included) being a bit pessimistic about it is a bit of a defense against the pain of another negative cycle. I tried really hard not to get too excited about beging pregnant b/c the letdown was so hard.

[sado0604]

Shannon - I am so sorry! It must be so frusturating for you! Thank God they found the cyst though as it could of permanently damaged your ovary and you dont need any more on your plate. Try and stay positive!

Suellen - I completely agree with A-Squared sometimes it is a normal defense mechanism so it doesnt hurt as bad if it's negative! Definitely try & keep yourself as busy as possible too!

First of all I wanted to say thanks for all the support! I am very blessed to have my son but it is still soooo hard TTC! So today I had my cycle day 4 ultrasound and things are already looking better this cycle. I am sticking with the 150 IU's of the gonal-f and I have 2 follicles already! Once is just at 12 and the other is at 14. It is amazing as due to my limited egg supply the dr's are happy to see at 1 follicle so to have 2 is great! I just hope for no more than 2 as the chances of multiples increases! Twins wouldnt be bad but more than that is too scary. Plus as I have mentioned before I am an identical twin and there are twins on both sides of my family!

So on a happy side note a good friend of mine just found out she is pregnant (well she is 10 weeks). What makes this so great as she was never supposed to be able to have kids naturally. She lost one tube & ovary when she was a teenager and by her early 20's they had to freeze her eggs. She does have b/g twins (they are 7) through IVF! I am so excited for them!