On to injections cycle #2 - Page 3

Clrbaby · #17 (**permalink**) 06-19-2006, 02:15 PM

Thanks so much for listening to me babble. And I totally understand how you felt when they asked about your weight. I'm at the opposite end and pretty chunky. But its in my genes. I am not as active as I could be but I'm not some fat slob who can barely breathe. I walk up to 3 miles in the morning and evening when I get in a good routine and have excellent blood pressure. I just need to be more consistent with my work outs.

Yet, in April I went to the same clinic to get inseminated and the doctor threw out there that I could wait and lose some weight first or go ahead with it. I was discouraged because he mentioned it and decided to wait till now. I knew in my heart as I left the clinic I should have done it anyway. I've gotten pregnant on my own while FAT. And my best friend is thin like you and super healthy and we've both had the same issues. We get pregnant then lose the baby so I'm not buying the fat thing.

Anyway, I had cooled down a bit until I read how your sis was in labor for 3 hours before they bothered to get with the program. So was I but after the third hour my water broke and that's what got them to help me. I was in so much pain. I wasn't prepared to deliver. I hadn't had any courses on how to push or breathe. It was too soon.

Well, I just want to say that I'm not letting any more heath care people be- little me or boss me around just because they THINK they know every thing. This is my body. I'm stepping up to the plate and owning what happens with it. I'm usually a soft spoken person but that's gotten me no where. From now on I speak my mind. Oh, and I can't believe that nurse asked if you were using protection. OOOO.....that just makes me want to throttle people. I loved it when you said you showed your chart. It sounds like she was caught off guard with how well imformed you are and just said some thing negative because she felt stupid. Who are these people and why do we have to deal with them?

Anyhoo where are you now with your tests? And when do you think you'll get to ttc?
I hope its soon. I need some good news.

Keep me posted.

A_Marine's_Wife · #18 (**permalink**) 06-20-2006, 03:30 AM

Ug Dh is driving me nuts lately he is so grumpy in the mornings when i have to wake him up. I get up at 4:15 and tepm then wake him up it takes me 30-45 minutes to get him out of bed in the morning then i have to deal with him being in a bad mood because he stayed up too late playing his online game and dident get enough sleep. I sat hear and typed a repy to you and got up tp make his lunch and he closed it ahhhh some days i could kill him he is worse to get up in the morning than a 15 year old. any way i totally understand how you feel i hate it when people talk to me like im stupid Im a soft spoken person most of the time also but im not someone you want to piss off. Listen to your body you and only you knows what its doing and what it needs. I hope you can get that BFP soon. im on CD20 right nowwating to see if i ovulated or not i think i may have on Cd18 considering my temp went up some more this morning. well see what fertility friend said after tomarrows temp. un like you

i cant always feel when i Ovulate lol i wish i could. so iv got to go buy my temps and my Cm/CP Ill get all my test results on the 29th that will tell me hormone levels and my glucose testing and a bunch of other stuff along with the results of my HSG. Dh needs to find time ot go in and get the results of his SA since he dident give them my Drs info so they wont fax the results to them hell have to go in a pick them up when he can mannage to find time grrr i want to know. so thats whats up with the test i wish they would just let me call in and get the results but they dont do that any more. were still TTC the doc dident tell us not to try so we just keep at it he told us to have sex eirler in my cycle but im not shure why we tried to stick to the every other day thing but it kinda got screwed up with Dh having to have his SA done. that and its kinda hard to obstain when you got as mutch fertal CM as iv had lately im not complaining though i usually dont have mutch at any point in my cycle so iv felt like i need to take advantage of it LOL so mabie its a good sign and well get lucky this cycle. hears my chart i always forget to post it lol. i guess i should add it into my siggie lol. i hope your having a better day today im hear if you need someone to talk to. http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/ee368

Clrbaby · #19 (**permalink**) 06-20-2006, 11:02 AM

Well, hey, that's great news that you guys are still trying amidst the test. Who knows maybe you'll get a BFP that'd be soooo cool. And I know how you feel about your DH. When mine is home, I have the same problem. He wakes up early on his own but at night he starts playing that blasted computer game like his life depended on it. Dork.....lol

Today is kind of a sad day but I just had accept that this cycle of hope is over unless I was inseminated with SUPER SPERM...lol.

I woke up this morning at 430 feeling sooo sick to my stomach like I could hurl. I had some minor uterus cramping just a bit dull. So, I used my opk and sure it enough it was positive. I was so upset because I was hoping it would stay negative indicating that maybe I ovulated on Sunday like I'd hoped but just didn't feel it. Anyway I did two tests this morning each 4 hours about and both showed that darn smiley face (ClearBlue Easy Digital opk). I did have a thought that maybe yesterday I was just testing too close together and that's why I didn't get the smiley face.

The real kicker is I called the clinic (yeah, had a moment of stupidity take over) and spoke to the same nurse again. (pause for emphasis) I swore I wasn't going to let anything she said get to me. I thought that if I acted really sweet and needy she'd be nicer. WRONG> After I told her about the positive opk she said 'That's why we like to take the bull by the horns' in other words she was saying it was my fault I missed my window of oppurtunity. I wanted to curse her out. She sounded like she'd won a fight or some thing. You know like "Ha, Ha told you so" ?

First off she didn't even want the insemination to happen. She said that right off the bat once she saw how many follicles I had waiting to release. I said I'd ovulate on Sunday (thinking my cycle was the same as usual) and so SHE scheduled me for Saturday IUI because she said some times we don't know our bodies and ovulation happens sooner.

Long story short I'm at odds with the clinic and the only other one is 3 hours away. They should have told me Clomid makes your cycle longer. But know one did. I'm not even sure if they realize it now. She even mentioned giving it to me AGAIN next cycle since it works so well. I didn't scream like I wanted to I calmly said 'or if I don't use clomid then I'll just produce on egg' (you know like I don't really understand what's going on and need her advice......PUKE) She was like 'Yes, that's right.'

I do not like her. I haven't told my husband about the troubles I'm having with the place. He has enough going on where he is.

So, I'm suppose to call them on cd1 as far as I know to start all over again. I just don't know if I can mentally do it knowing how they operate now. I do know after this first cycle what should work. All I need is the IUI and a ovulation trigger shot since the clomid will still be in my system next month.

Okay, I'm done ranting. Its so easy to let people get your goat.

I'm going to try and stay positive. I really want to have a child and these people have the toos to do it. So, I'm going to have to suck it up until I get pregnant or my DH comes home to do the job himself.

A_Marine's_Wife · #20 (**permalink**) 06-20-2006, 11:57 AM

Dhs computer habbit drives me nuts i cant get him to understand how mutch it hurts when he chouses it over me. he was really good about spending time with me when he first got back from iraq and now he has sliped back into the habbit of playing every free minute he has.(at least it feels that way he plays a tone even in the morning before he goes to work) and the fact that he is sutch an butt in the mornings bacause he isant getting enough sleep is driving me nuts im almost tempted to tell him to get up on his own if he doesent get up when the alarm goes off than its his problem and he can suffer the punishment when he is late to work. but im too nice and cant seem to get my self to do it. sorry to ramble all that im just as frustrated with that as i am about TTC. but ya im glad we still got to try this cycle i dident want to miss out on one. i dident know that clomid made your cycles longer that wouldnt be good for me my cycles are already between 34 and 38 days id hate for them to get longer we only have a few months left before Dh gets out and i louse my inshurance and wont be able to do and of this specitality stuff. I hope you have better luck next cycle i dont know if i could deal with the off ice or not but if you do go back for the next cycle when you make the appointment ask for a different nurse they should be able to do at least that mutch for you. Hang in their youll get that little sticky bean soon, I just know it. Im crossing my fingers for you

Clrbaby · #21 (**permalink**) 06-20-2006, 01:28 PM

Thanks, its been so GREAT having you to talk to about this. I'm all alone out here with him gone and its so frustrating.

I did just read online a posting that gave me a little hope. This nurse gave the example of having sex on Saturday and still being able to fertilize an egg on Wednesday. I was like HEY that sounds like what I'm hoping for.....what are the odds. Man I'm hoping so HARD that that scenario happens to me. Then I won't have to go back to the wicked witch.

And OH TELL ME ABOUT THE COMPUTER THING....Girl my husband does the SAME thing. Before he goes to work, after he gets home for work............no matter how I complain that we need to spend time together its like he can't detach from that computer. If he does give in and stops playing that darn game then he just sits on the love seat while I watch tv from the couch.....its like he's on punishment or some thing. So, that's no fun either. We have very few tv shows that we can watch together so that means its hard to just hang out with both of us enjoying it.

He says when he gets back from Iraq he'll be spending ALL of his free time with me.....but he's also talking about getting a BETTER computer when he gets back too......LOL

You are not alone! The computer can be an addiction. Some folks spend alot of time on it because they are lonely and need companion ship. People who are married or are living with their significant other are just WRONG. And the need some counseling..lol...seriously the other person feels neglected if they are just sitting around while the other is playing dumb games or surfing during time that they should really be connecting with their loved one.

We all need alone time but not THAT much.

I've been trying to think of outdoor events to go to encourage more together tiem like ballgames, hockey....you know where you can laugh together and just have fun.

Have you tried that technique,yet,? Since he is home, I'd throw it out there.

Thanks for being so cool to talk with.....my dogs don't respond well to my ranting.....they run and hide....hahah

A_Marine's_Wife · #22 (**permalink**) 06-20-2006, 01:56 PM

Its been great having you to talk to also i dont know anyone hear besise Dh to talk to i get so board i end up talking to my mom for 3 hours just to have a conversation with someone. Iv always been told that sperm can live up to five days at least in all the books that i have read and they way my doc talked in suggesting we have sex days before i acutally ovulate i think you may still have a chance im so crossing my fingers for you that would be so exciting. i dont mind him playing his game so mutch during the week i understand he works long and hard hours and he needs time to unwind or relax but i cant see staying up tell midnight or 1 in the morning when you have to get up at 4-5 its kinda rediculaus and immiture (i so did not spell that right lol) it really bothers me on weekends when iv spent the hole week stuck in the house(we only have one car) buy my self then the weekend comes i want to go to the beach or do something with him and have human contact but he gets up and goes straight to the computer its verry rare i can get him to do something with me. if i ask him to watch something on tv he acts like its killing him. i get lonely so i come in the office to talk to him and he acts like im annoying him or bothering him. i try to get him to do things with me but he never seems intrested or he tells me yes he wants to go or do what ever then i get up and dressed and everything and he changes his mind at the last minute. Its driving me nuts i talked to him about it and he tells me that he needs the time to relax that its his weekend to do what he wants to and im like what about me when is my day off i cook clean do laundry mow lawns weeed 7 days a week for the last 3 years when do i get to relax. I think he is adicted to the computer he used to play starwars before he deployed and i was always angry for him spending so mutch time on it then he came home and switched games and was like i dont like this one as mutch so i wont play as mutch that lasted for about 2 months now he is back to playing constantly im just super frustrated im glad its not just me that feels this way. He always tells me when i ask him to come do something with me or if we are going to go any where or play a board game he tells me that im nagging (im puzzled buy that one) my favorite thing is going to the beach and he acts like its a death sentence to spend an hour or two. so the last week i have stoped comming in the office to talk to him if he wants to talk to me he can come to where im at mabie he will realize that he hasent talked to me mutch in a few days and come spend some time with tme. Right now he has a broken hand so everything is hard for him to do so im doing even more than i normally have to. I thought a cast covering all but three fingers would keep him from playing so mutch but it doesent. (rolling eye and shaking head) any way thanks for listening to me complain about my Dh and his bad habbits lol. I think i ovulated finally on cd 18 and we bd the two days before so hopefully the HSG cleaned everything out and well catch the eggie so well see. thanks for talking to me TOnes of baby Dust

Clrbaby · #23 (**permalink**) 06-20-2006, 10:05 PM

Hey! Alright! You got to bd so close to your ovulation. I wish. I am actually ovulating right NOW. I thought I'd treat myself to see a movie tonight so by the time I get home my ovaries are screaming! So, that test kit was right on the money when it showed positive. That means I ovulated about 17 hours after my first positive. (first was at 430am) I hope the pain doesn't get any worse and thanks for sending me some baby dust.....we can only hope.

At least I have some thing to distract me now. I usually do temp work because I stopped working full time to try and have a family. So the people I do temp work for called me up to go help out another company until the 17th of July. I'll only have to work 3 days a week from 7am till 330pm. I was like HECK YEAH I'll do it. This way if I'm not pregnant I'll have some thing to do to keep my mind off of the failed attempt until I can try again. Also, I'll be too busy working to do a hundred pregnancy test strips like I usually do. I mean you have all that time on your hands, with no one to communicate with its the only thing you can think of to do.

Anyways, I must have married his twin. I have the same problem with my DH. I felt like you were talking about my situation. I felt so sorry for you because I know what it feels like. Some times I get so angre I'm like I'm leaving, I don't even see why you have me around when you don't pay any attention to me unless you get super horny or I make a fuss. And like you I really have no one to just hang out with all the time. My friends either have kids or are just so many years older than me that most of the things to do just don't fit into their life styles.

My family lives in Texas and I've wanted to relocate there to be closer to them so bad because he is always gone. Then when he gets home he might as well be gone because he disappears into the computer monitor.

I just feel it shouldn't be this way. Ya, know? I didn't get married to just sit around like an artifact. Well, he still says when he gets home its going to be different......but he said that the last time he got deployed over there and after a week it was right back to his old agenda.

I wish we could find a way to get their attention so that it could be like it was before getting married. He actually seemed to enjoy me better not married.......lol.....now it seems like all his spare time is so precious that only he can indulge in it. Maybe they will grow out of it. You think?

He is interested in having a child at least. It hasn't always been the case. He just initially didn't have that need to have a child. I grew up planning the day I'd have ten.......

Now I'm just struggling to have one.

You know if going over to Iraq and putting your life on the line isn't enough to make some one more appreciative of theri loved ones then WHAT could possibly geth to turn their heads our way for a little bit?

I think I'm going to talk to a counselor and have him do it as well when he gets back. I'm not going to rely on him just saying 'he will'. Maybe some outside help will help him see that he needs to refocus his priorities.

Okay, I'm going head to bed. Gotta an early morning and things to do actually for a change.

Hang in there! *HUGS*

A_Marine's_Wife · #24 (**permalink**) 06-21-2006, 05:45 AM

Well fertility friend gave me my ovulation date this morning on cd18 which is what i kinda figured and like you said we got to be the two days before so that seems prity good to me but so far that hasent done any good we seem to have good bd timing just about every cycle. thats what makes me think mabie something is going on. im crossing my fingers for this cycle though hopefully fertilityfriend wont chande my ovulation date it does that every now and then well keep bding every ovther day for a few more days just to b e shure but im prity shure i already have ovulated. Im crossing my fingers that you still hade some supper swimmers in thier to catch your egg. its a bit of a possibility since you ovulated yesterday that woudl be day four so mabie they swam up high and met the egg at the starting gate lol. Dh tried to get his SA results from the navel hospital yesterday and they told him they werent ready which i dont understand cues they only have like 30 minutes to check them out and test them. but he is supost to go back today and talk to someone else he said they were really busy he think they were just telling him that to get rid of him lol. today is a week since he had it done. im anxious to know the results as well as mine its gonna take forever 8 days to go buy lol ill be 11DPO when i go in for my appointment. ahhh the exciting thing is dh goes on leave the next day so mabie ill con him into doing something with me mabie camping. lol Iv never tried the opk i looked at them but they were expensive and you know how being on military pay can be.

im glad you got the temp job for a while that sounds like fun i need something to keep my mind off all the TTC stuff iv been looking for a job for the past 6 months but no one wants to hire me iv applied for everything from day cares to cleaning rooms at motels nothing seems to work out though and thats as frustrating as this TTC business lol. id really like to work and get some money save up for when he gets out in sept.

like you my family is in MO well most of it my bro is back in CA. so i have a hard time being away from them when he deployed last year my mom called me and said you daddy and i want you to come stay with us at least part of the time while he is deployed their is no since in you sitting bye your self for 8 months. so i stayed a few months hear then i went and visited them made a road trip to CA to see my bro and his family and then at the end i spent three months rebuilding a 65 mustang for DH with my dad im so glad that i went and got to spend the time working with him and my mom.

I keep telling my self that Dh will get better about the computer i dont think he would go to councling and im not shure how comfortable id be talking to a stranger about our problems (lol then again im laying it out to you but i guess your really not a stranger any more) I actually dont know anyone hear besise DH one of his friends got married while dh was deployed i made friends with her sorta but they got divorced a few months back and she went home so im still with out any friends.

It was DHs idea to have a baby and i decided i wasent getting any younger if we were gonna have kids we had better do it now. and so far its looking like a good decision that we started now im actually wishing we would have started trying a couple years agaio.

well i guess i need to get off hear for a little bit the back yards lawn is calling me to come cut it ug and its hot out already lol. Good luck at the job talk ot ya later