girls, things have been busy here as usual, I hope it slows down a bit.
Mother's Day was nice, but I do have to tell you those who kept me in their thoughts and prayers it was definitely felt.
Russ, cooked a small light breakfast for me and then we went to church, and to eat with MIL/FIL, then I had to go to work by 4 pm.

This week has been busy and I guess there is a hidden reason to that subconsciously I guess, if I am busy then I don't have a lot of time to really 'think' or cry as I am really missing my mom so there is some good to that I suppose.

Sadness also feels my heart as I have to ask Zach to move out...now that he has turned 18.
I have been putting this off for some time, not really wanting to deal with it
and of course more so since losing my mom, I didn't want to "lose" him too.
But there comes a time that I have to somehow let go and things have just gotten to that point, after all I do have another child to consider right....

I know you can't :beatingadeadhorse and I have given Zach enough time to find a job and get motivated... he hasn't had a job since last Father's Day well at least a paying one
as he begs to differ... He isn't in school(left there in Oct 06') and I don't really know if he will actually register and go make the grades he is capable of etc... so... he leaves me no other choice at this time.

This too is one of the HARDEST things a parent must have to do.. I am so grateful for all of the good things about Zach, and for that I have made excuses of why not to ask him to leave, I think I have been fooling myself.

I don't want our 'relationship' to be ruined etc... but I think on one hand he has already done that with cussing me out, telling me I am a failure since I chose to be home and a mother. Because I
was a divorced mom, who went to college at 30... and didnt' finish, of course since I was a single mom and didn't work
so I could be home with him... and didn't have enough $$ to continue since we lived on student loans/grants.. that makes me a failure... He is just breaking my heart in a way I didn't know was possible.


I just don't know what else to do? I am open to hear what you have to say either here or PM or email if you have something
you want to share.
I think he may need to learn a few things in order to appreciate what he does have. KWIM.

I guess this whole thing is standing out in my head as my dear friend Linda whom I have been friends with for 28 yrs
her daughter who is a Jr in college recently told her and I that she was upset as she worked and was NEVER home & she resents that.
I mean, Linda never had to tell her DD's NO for anything they wanted to do. I on the other hand had to tell Zach no more often than not
since we didn't' have the extra $. You can't win. I stay home and make sacrifices to do so and she works and we still get the same crap...

I don't know if it this generation or what but they want everything and then some just handed to them with no strings attached, or any work ethic
at all.

OK, I will get off my soapbox now...

Please, if I may ask, just keep those prayers coming.

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