Well I am having another poor pitiful me episode. My sister sent out pictures of her big belly to everyone and relatives keep asking me if I am excited. Heck no I am not excited.

Also, my girlfriend has posted all these cute little bump pictures on her page and has all these comments about Happy Mother's Day, You're so cute, so and so wants to throw you a baby shower, congrats-blah blah.

I went upstairs to talk to DH and just laid in his lap on the verge of tears and told him about my emails from my relatives. All he said was-why do you keep letting yourself get upset about these things?? Well that just turned into a huge argument.

My sister and my friend are getting excited about a baby and I get excited about instead cups. I am so angry at DH right now. We are in this situation due to his issues and I am sticking cups up my crotch and sitting here crying my eyes out and he is upstairs playing Playstation 3.

I am so angry and you guys are the only ones that understand.

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[b][b]DH MFI low sperm count 5 million
Had SA on 1/22/2008-found out low sperm count.
2/14/2008-SA analysis again-yep-count still sucked!
2/21/2008-appointment with urologist found varicocile
3/3/2008-Surgery for varicocile-Doctor found TWO varicociles and had the buggers removed.
DH on Clomid for the next 3 months
4/9/2008-DH's testosterone went from 303 to 827!!
June-DH's counts are to 23 million!!
IUI 7/9/08 count 9 mill post wash
7/19/08
7/22/08- BETA 50
7/24/08 BETA 116
8/14/08-First Ultrasound-baby measuring fine and heart beat perfect-RE Is thrilled with results!
8/28/2008-Ultrasound 2-little bean still looks perfect

Oh Brookelyn, I'm so sorry you're going through a tough time. It's amazing how many pg woman appear out of no where, when the only thing you want is to get pg. I went to a big shopping mall last weekend in the big city and I counted 23 pg woman pass by, just while having lunch! I had never seen so many in my life. I swore that there was a gathering or some sort of promotion in a store for them, but no there was nothing.
I think it's like a diet, when you decide to go on a diet, you see everything you're not supposed to eat in front of you!
As for your DH, I think it's a man's nature to NOT make a fuss about anything. Men don't worry and stress. Men don't even like the fact that there IS a problem. They ignor problems. I'm actually surprised that there are so many cycle buddy's DH's that are taking medication! A latino (like my DH) will NEVER take medication! Heaven forbid that ever happening, they think the world will come to an end!
I hope a good night's sleep made you feel better. It not, we're always here to lend a shoulder...

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I'm sorry! I know it is tough when everyone around you is having babies and you just want to get pregnant. I have 3 close friends that have all had second babies while I have been TTC. It is frustrating and so hard to be happy for them. BUT...we need to remember that it is your sister and try to be happy for her the best you can. She too will be happy for you one day as well. =) Your time is coming. Maybe this cycle! =) GOOD LUCK and CHIN UP!

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I hear you girl. Our time is coming and just remember that it will make it that much more special.

"I am not afraid of the storm, it is teaching me how to sail my ship."

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i'm so sorry!!! i hope that everything turns around for you soon!

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TTC since July 2007-off bcp! but not ovulating and irregular cys

March '08: REI consult, dx with PCOS. DH is good-no MFI!
March-June: clomid-no O
June: injectibles, no luck =(
July: officially reached 1 yr TTC mark =( =(
August: taking a break from meds and the hit to the wallet they cause. =( =( =(
Will try injectibles again in '09 (if we need to fingers crossed =)

I am so sorry you're going through this!

I try to avoid telling people anything that is going on with me pregnancy wise unless they ask. I don't email out belly pictures or links to stuff I want to buy the baby for this exact reason. You never know what other people are going through and things like that can be very painful. Hopefully some people will find some sensitivity for you soon!

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I'm sorry. After I had my m/c, it seemed that everyone I know suddenly started announcing they were pregnant - it was really tough. I agree that many dh's seem to be much less affected by the whole TTC thing, perhaps it's easier as they are not the ones charting every da, POAS, looking for pg symptoms, etc. I hope you get a BFP soon!!

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Andrea

I so know how you are feeling right now.. I have the same problem with everyone being pregnant around me.. and then one of my girlfriends got pregnant and didnt even want to be.. so i know its very frustrating.. Im at work-- and the girl that sits right behind me is 9 months pregnant with her second child and all she does is complain about being pregnant.. sometimes i want to yell at her and say that she is very lucky that she is even having a baby.. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

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