I just found out that another one of my friend's is expecting in December, this makes the 4th friend that is due in November/December. This makes 9 total that are due this year. Just sucks. I'm sooooooooo SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO extremely excited for all of them but when is going to be my turn? There are 2 of them having their 2nd baby all during this time we've been trying. I REALLY my friends so much but it's really hard and I just want to be pregnant with them so bad. I know God has a purpose and it's not for us to have another right now, if ever but it just sucks. I'm sorry for the pity party.

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BTW I don't mean to complain, it's just hard to watch their bellies grow, esp with my loss last month. Our church's drinking water must be tainted, I should drink it up

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Kara... I know I can put myself in that group but I just wanted to say how hard I am praying for you. I believe you *will* be blessed again... God's timing is perfect. I feel bad saying that since I'm pregnant but I couldn't just not post after reading how down you are right now. Hugs sweetie.

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Katrina & Lucas
Ethan, Owen & Sophie

Aw Katrina, actually you aren't even in that group, these are all ladies in my bible study group here in town!! I love you girl

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Sorry you're so down. It was really hard for me to see pg women after my m/c (had one while TTC #2). I remember when one of my co-workers announced she was pg with #4 shortly after my loss - she then went on to tell me how it was an "oops" and that they weren't all that excited, etc., etc. - that was really hard to listen to given my circumstances at the time. I hope you get a sticky BFP soon!

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Andrea

Oh hon, I'm sorry you are so down right now, I KNOW how that feels, I think a lot of us do, seeing everyone around you getting pg and having their babies when we've been trying much longer. I was feeling like that just last week and this Mother's Day in church was TORTURE!! There were all the people with their children and SO many little babies in church and my mom just kept saying how cute all of them were. I just wanted her to stop pointing all of them out! I know she just loves kids and can't wait for us to have them, I don't think people can relate unless they are going through it...know we are here for you!

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I feel you Kara - I have two best friends that are as pregnant as they come. One of them had an oops and isn't even married and the other is my best friend of 14 years that started trying for her second after I told her I was trying for my 1st. So took my thunder and got pregnant on her first cycle. I am going to her ultrasound this week where we find out what sex she is having. I am so excited for her, but at the same time I just want to be going to my own ultrasounds. Keep your head up!

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You are right - it is terrible. I watched my SIL get accidentally pregnant with #2, and several friends try and have their babies while we tried. . . . it is just awful, especially after your recent loss. I'm sorry you have to deal with this

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I totally understand how you feel! We just have to continue to believe that our turn will come in due time. Leah...I was fine on Mother's Day until I got to church and went through the same thing you described! DH & MIL kept pointing out and making comments about all the cute little babies and how they couldn't wait till we had one of our own. Then they recognized the oldest mom, youngest mom, mom with most children, etc. etc. I was happy for all them but at the same time I just couldn't wait till it was over! I left feeling very bitter

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Kara, it looks like you had a really strong O this time. Perhaps this is your month! And if not, you are still pretty fertile after the m/c so I have a good feeling you will be pg within the next three months, if not this one!

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Kara - I'm right there with you! Right now I'm planning a baby shower for an unplanned baby. It's incredibly hard, but I just keep waiting to see what the "master plan" is. Sometime it will be obvious why I have to wait so long.

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Thanks guys. I knew you would all understand. I'm ok today. I saw my friend yesterday at the zoo (the one that makes #4 in my circle). I'm one of the hosts for 5 babyshowers this summer. Kind of crazy but I'm thinking positive that I'll be adding to our family someday.

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