I know I dont post nearly as much as I did before I left last time, but I just wanted to give you all a heads up on whats going on. DH are still having a lot of difficult days (as some of you may remember) things are ok between us (not great, but ok) except we havent dtd since Dec 20... yes I am counting. since we arent ttc it doesnt matter much, but I sure do miss my husband. that and the fact that I absolutly do not want a winter baby leaves me with I dont want to get pg in the very near future. plus I've been doing a lot of thinking lately and with the way our relationship is and the fact taht we are now living with my in-laws... see heres the deal, lets say when we actually do move out on our own and its just the three of us, what if I cant handle DH what if he just rubs me the wrong way what if we dont get along. we have only lived alone once and that was before Gracie otherwise we lived with my parents, so its really never been just us... what if we dont like each other????? AAANNNDDDD since having Gracie I have always had somone else there... my dad would take her out of my hair while I cooked dinner or my mom would watch her while I folded laundry stuff like that... what if, when we move on our own finally I cant handle her by myself. that and that DH is now working graveyards and is COMPLETLY USELESS durring the day I will have no one to fall back on... I dont want to bring a second child into a world where I cant even handle the first one by myself. I mean I think I pretty much have her under control, and if we lived alone just us the house would be toddler proofed so I wouldnt have to worry too much if I had to do dishes or whatnot. but still ya know, she ALWAYS asks for me, like tonight I put her to bed, then she called out for milk, DH took a sippy cup into her and she said no mommy give to me. so I have to do absolutly everything for her. how can I do that if I have a baby stuck to me at the boob ya know. ug geez I'm rambling just kinda venting. thanks ladies for being so supportive. you can keep my chart up there for all your obsessers if you get currious I chart to prevent, but then again since we havent had sex in 3 months I will take it when I can get it so who knows. i wish you all the very very best of luck Missy you big time, congrats on the house, Stephany if you read this I really hope these next few months fly by for you, I have only the best wishes for you!

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Oh no, Im so sorry. I wish you the best of luck of getting things better. You got to do, what you got to do at times. Completely understandable.

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Rachel
Proud Mother of 2 Boys and a Girl
Isaac David - February 2004
Carson Eli - January 2006
Kianna Rachelle - May 2008





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Jonita - coming out of hiding to wish you all the best.

You know, you will cope fine with Gracie on your own even with another baby. One thing I learnt is that it just sort of works out with kids. Every time I have another one I get those 'How will I cope?' moments - but it all works out fine in the end.

As for your husband, good luck. I am sure that things will even out for you. My favorite way of looking at a relationship is that it is like a bank or a financial investment. You get back what you put in, sometimes with interest! I know that you have been trying really hard - I am sure that he will realise this soon enough and give you a little in return. Keep loving your man Jonita! You're a trooper. I feel for you, it must be horrible to go so long without physical affection in a long term relationship. Will he talk about it with you?

Anyhow, what I really want to say is 'Take care of yourself'.

Claire xxx

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iPregnant
Due with baby #5 on January 27th

I haven't had a chance to get to know you, but I wish you and your whole family luck and peace in the future. I hope to be posting with you again! Take good care.

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Me -29 DH - 33
Married June 13, 2003
Completely anovulatory without meds
10/07 - 12/07 50mg Clomid,
12/07 - DH's SA all normal!
2/21/08 - RE consult
3/08 100mg clomid cd3-7, no follicles, cycle cancelled
4/08 - 150mg clomid cd3-7, u/s on cd14, 1 follicle @ 24mm, trigger shot on cd14 and timed bd,
5/08 - HSG looks good
6/08 - IUI+INJ #1,
7/08 - IUI+INJ #2,
8/08 - IUI+INJ #3

I just wanted to say good luck to you... You just never know! YOu and hubby could get along BETTER when you live on your own

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I just popped in and saw your post. Best of luck to you in all areas!! I hope things work out for you! Pop in every once in a while to say Hi! Thanks for the encouragement...I hope the next few months fly by for me as well! We'll miss you

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