Well, the court date is over - we were found not guilty as expected. The prosecutor let us go early so we could avoid the press which I am not sure was too good for us actually. No one got hear what happened in court and some of the information out there is still incorrect. The wonderful thing was that we were not guilty - THANK GOD! I was so relieved and happy - we went out and celebrated all day long. They had an article in the paper early in the afternoon and I was even ok with that. Some information was still incorrect but it was actually an ok article. I woke up happy for the first time in 3 long months - I was feeling a bit more like myself and found my self going back to some of the things I did before this happened - playing with PJ in the morning, reading books, not dreading the day. I felt good for the first time in a LONG time. I was joking around with my DH and everything. We got in the car and went to run a few errands and pick up the sander for the floor. ANYWAY, my supervisor from the foster care agit is so stupidency called and asked if we had seen the article in the paper. I was like - yeah, I thought it was ok. Then she said they had CHANGED IT! They added our mug shots (lovely) and the county board made a comment that their findings were that we were negligent and would not be allowed to do foster care anymore! I was floored. I just started crying. I LOVE doing foster care - it made me feel so good to help them and they gave me so much in return. I miss them everyday. Their investigation was based on the statement made by the police officer which did not hold up in court so why in the world would it not be ok for them? I am totally innocent yet I am still being treated like a criminal. I just cannot believe this is happening still. I thought it would all be over when we were found innocent. It looks as though it is just beginning - I will NOT roll over and play dead. I am going to address the board on Tuesday if they will let me and I am going to present what we were going to present at the trial. Please pray that they see that WE are the VICTIMS here - not the criminals. This nightmare has got to end.

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Elizabeth (42) DH (43)

I LOVE MY AUNT PAMMY!!


11/03 Lost Twin
TTC #2 Since 11/04
8/05 - Repronex 150 and btb IUIs
Positive HPT 8/22
9/23/05 - M/C
2/05 - Repronex 225/150 alternating and btb IUIs !!


It's a GIRL!! Born 10/19/06

Elizabeth....I was thinking about you and your family all day.
I am glad of the court findings but sad the agency is still giving you
grief. I am so glad your going to stand your ground and fight for
what you believe is righteous. I wish you only blessings in your
case.
I wish you blessings ALWAYS!!!

Barb

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may someone love you enough to forgive your faults,
be blind to your blemishes, and tell the world about
your virtues. And may we live in a world at peace
and with the awareness of God's love in every
sunset, every flower's petals, every lover's kiss
and every wonderful, astonishing miraculous beat
of our Heart.





one mission one life rest
sleeply in peace

I'm glad you got the verdict you were xpecting Elizabeth. I'm sorry that the fight is not yet over. Hang in there. You can't be robbed of foster care falsely. You just can't.

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Where did I come from?" the baby asked its mother. She answered, half-crying, half-laughing, and clasping the baby to her breast: "You were hidden in my heart as its desire, my darling. You were in the dolls of all my childhood games. In all my hopes and my loves, in my life, in the life of my mother, and in her mother before her, you have lived."
--Rabindranath Tagore

Thanks for the kind words. I have been just beside myself this evening. I am still wide awake and it is 12:30 in the morning. I am just so upset - I provided almost 12 years of service to them and it meant absolutely nothing to them (the board). I know it mattered to my clients - they had a good life and that is really what matters but it hurts to be stabbed in the back by the very people that should be supporting you. Thank goodness the agency I worked through is still there for me. I am getting my facts together for a guest columnist article I am going to write for the newspaper - my husband's step brother's wife is going to help me (she is a writer and has been published in the paper before). I hope that helps get my story across. I feel so alone in all of this - no one even cares what we have to say or what the truth is. What a world we live in. I guess instead of being guilty until proven innocent we are now guilty and got away with it in the eyes of the press and in the eyes of the board - there seems to be no justice in the world.

__________________
Elizabeth (42) DH (43)

I LOVE MY AUNT PAMMY!!


11/03 Lost Twin
TTC #2 Since 11/04
8/05 - Repronex 150 and btb IUIs
Positive HPT 8/22
9/23/05 - M/C
2/05 - Repronex 225/150 alternating and btb IUIs !!


It's a GIRL!! Born 10/19/06

Elizabeth, I'm so glad they found you not guilty. I'm sorry you're still being treated like you did something wrong by the agency. You would think they'd know you better then that after working for them for 12 years! Hang in there honey, this too shall pass.

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Lynne

Wife to Ron (24 years)
Mom to 12 beautiful children here on earth and 5 precious babies awaiting our reunion in heaven.
mc #1 ~ 2-1-94 @ 10 weeks
mc #2 ~ 5-13-94 @12 weeks
mc #3 ~ 5-13-99 @ 8 weeks
mc #4 ~ 3-24-01 @ 10 1/2 weeks (identical twins)
Justin 11-14-84
Jason 2-17-88
Elizabeth 11-17-91
Daniel 12-16-92
Josiah 8-5-95
Isaiah 5-7-97
Hannah 10-10-98
Sarah (twin) 9-23-00 (40 wks 1 day) 7 lbs. 3 ozs.
Elijah (twin) 9-23-00 7 lbs.5 ozs.
Jeremiah 3-18-02
Abigail 7-13-03
Isabella 2-5-06

Before you were conceived I wanted you, before you were born I loved you, and before you were 1 minute old I would have died for you.