Tina.............your in my {{{{ thoughts}}}

Barbara5210 · #1 (**permalink**) 02-05-2007, 08:20 AM

all week...........maybe cause its so dam cold here it reminds me
of yr weather

all we're doing is hauling wood throwing
it into the woodburning stove.....acutally I have this lovely deed

....and have the bruises to show for it.
Tom leaves so early in the am he'll throw some in but with this
cold spell YIKES I can bearly keep up.
Tom is crzy he said yr cardiologist wants u to build up yr endurance
with cardio so lug lug lug away.....I dont think so????
hmmmmm does he think I am

hhhhhhhhhhhh but then
again maybe I am....we all are just in this IF journey!
Let us know how you are!

((( Barb)))
plus yr Bartmister!

theoptimist · #2 (**permalink**) 02-06-2007, 04:41 PM

Hi Barb.

Nothing like a wood burning stove. There's no heat like it. Wish I had one. I grew up with one. It is an absolute deep freeze here and there is no end in sight. -30 to -40 and that is without the windchill. I mostly feel for my 12 year old doggy

. It is really getting to him and he is having bathroom issues. Too cold to go. He had 2 accidents in the house and this has not happened in 12 years. I am not mad at him at all.....in fact I gave him a treat...but he is acting scared and upset. My poor little man.

Anyway, re the IVF and my situation. I guess I'm dragging my feet. I had to go for day 3 FSH again and it came back at 16.1. So I've had a 17.5, 10.7 and now 16.1 in the last 4 months. So I started BCP's and the plan was for retrieval in March(6th or so). But now I'm dragging my feet and wanting to cancel for April. I have to let them know by Friday. I will take 2 weeks off work and I'm feeling pretty good about it but scared. If I fail at this I have no back-up plan and I'm just scared. Also feeling that I have no support(except of course for you great ladies here on Sheknows).
So that's my situation. I'm thinking I will go for the April which would mean retrieval April 8th or 15th depending which cycle I go for.
Thanks for thinking about me Barb. It means alot to me. I find you to be an inspiration.
I could really use some encouragement. I should follow my dream.....right? Can't succeed if you don't try? Right? I go from feeling really positive to really negative. I know it is normal. I'm rambling right now.

Barbara5210 · #3 (**permalink**) 02-06-2007, 06:06 PM

Ramble away....dear friend! I know exactly how yr moods are
up & down like a toilet seat.........I have been there on many occassions.
I think I cant handle anymore....then lay down and think that if we dont
continue to try I will be so upset with myself.....remember dont let the
fsh #s make you so crzy....I read sucess after sucess of ladies with
fsh #s in the high 60s get their bfp.....
I would go with yr gut...if April is best for your cycle then let it be
April..........remember if you still get af you can still get preggers.....
I have to bring on af chemically..............I would love one more yr
with her (and I thought I would never feel that way) LOL

Yr poor baby......I have Toms dog in diapers (he is a 7 pound yorkie)
and the cold is not appealing to him even in a sweater and coat.
So he pees in the diaper and I am ok with this for this week,
He is so little Tina.....and it is so cold here that I forgive him too.
He'll be 13 Feb14th........is blind from cataracts but boy can he fend
for himself.....he even tries to challenge the cats.....
so let yr big baby have his way in the house...I keep alot of paper
towels handy...but the diapers made a hugh difference!

Please remember on this note yr not alone with all of Us here on
sheknows! I just wish you were closer so we can do a "hang"
when times get difficult..........
try to stay positive.....it will happen in Gods time not ours
just remember this ok?
and plz try to stay warm -40 I would crap LOL

Hugs and support from NJ

Barb

theoptimist · #4 (**permalink**) 02-09-2007, 04:08 AM

Hi Barb.

Your support means alot to me. Hmmmmmm diapers...wonder if bartmonster would let me put a diaper on him. I think I'll try...good idea. I did lay down alot of newspapers. We will get through it.
I booked my holidays tentatively for my IVF and this a.m. I have to phone in to pay my non-refundable fee to hold my spot for IVF. If all works out my ER and ET would be the week of April 8th.
I am going back to read your other post, and maybe you will answer my question there..........what needs to take place to get your body read for transfer? What is happening with that? Do they forsee any problems or will that be a piece of cake for you?
Talk to you soon.
Hugs
Tina