Aw, Sarah. It's hard. Especially if you have not yet had a child. The what if's can't change a thing, so don't beat yourself up. God has a plan... we just don't know exactly what it is yet.

Just know that you are doing what you can and the rest is not in your hands. I wish this road were easier for us older gals. But I need to cling to the knowledge that it does happen and it may just happen for me. And you!
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Jacqueline
47, DH 48
Momma to:
Eric Taylor 13
Alyssa Renee 10
Emily Grace 8
Kevin Matthew 5
Five Angels, 11/96 - 7 wks, 5/97 - 6 wks (twin), 9/98 - 11 wks, 1/99 - 8 wks(T-18), 11/01 - 10 wks(T-21)
Tubal Ligation Reversal 4/12/01
Where did I come from?" the baby asked its mother. She answered, half-crying, half-laughing, and clasping the baby to her breast: "You were hidden in my heart as its desire, my darling. You were in the dolls of all my childhood games. In all my hopes and my loves, in my life, in the life of my mother, and in her mother before her, you have lived."
--Rabindranath Tagore