Just a quick hello from freaky deaky cold Ontario!!!

Looks like my provera is starting to work tomorrow should be CD1 by the lite show today!

Our sole donor is getting antsy and wants a down payment last week, I put it off to this week, she wants 25% upfront to retain her........

We haven't even done our trip to US yet Yikes, this week i have been very stressed. I haven't paid off all of that yet either or made the trip.

I actually heard myself say that I had regretted all of this, stress and $ etc

DH and I have had a few issues, the hormones and my illness almost killed me oevr the last couple of months, which exaggerated our stupidity.

Good news tho, I have been feeling WAY better! My little twin said in the van today, "Mama's lungs better" "not sick" and I smiled and knew that he can see I am getting better.
To be honest I think I was very depressed and didn't really know it either.
It was the first time I had sat down in 3 yrs and thought about my life and my twins birth. I feel like I am coming out of a dark hole.
I have been silently grieving along time i think.....but kept myself so BUSY I didn't realise what was wrong until i got sick and stopped the distractions.
I feel like I have been on survival mode for too long, so all of it hit all at once and now I am on the other side

I don't think I will go back to work, have decided on more university in sept of no BFP.................

My typical twin isn't toilet trained and I decide the coldest week of the year to start LOL - NOT GOING WELL LOLOLOLOL

So thats been my week, my eldest son PASSED his first semester of GR 9 on the academic level which for him is a miracle!!!!

Aren't you glad you aren't me LOL

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Melissa mama to "Miracle Twins" Christian Chance & Lleyton Noble 10/2003 Zoe Honor 14yrs Dylan 16yrs

7 much loved and wanted Embabies FET set for ??
Praying for our LAST CYCLE USING MY EGGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey there girlie.

Glad AF finally showed. Glad to hear you are feeling better too.
Congrats on your 9th grader passing his first semester! We too are working on toilet training and just about have it down now. Kevin has been quite a laaazy boy.

You definately sound in a better frame of mind Melissa.

Hey, if the frozen cy works, do you just lose your money with the sole donor?

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Where did I come from?" the baby asked its mother. She answered, half-crying, half-laughing, and clasping the baby to her breast: "You were hidden in my heart as its desire, my darling. You were in the dolls of all my childhood games. In all my hopes and my loves, in my life, in the life of my mother, and in her mother before her, you have lived."
--Rabindranath Tagore

Hi Jacq,

Actually we can keep the embies on ice for up to a year i think.
The donor although the process is 3-5 months from start to finish is cannot donate legally more than 2-3 times per year. Canada has many unecessary laws. Hence us going to the US.
So if i did get a BFP I would freeze everything from donor.
Realistically we could try when we wanted.
we have to pay up front freezing and storage costs anyhow.

Have a great day!

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Melissa mama to "Miracle Twins" Christian Chance & Lleyton Noble 10/2003 Zoe Honor 14yrs Dylan 16yrs

7 much loved and wanted Embabies FET set for ??
Praying for our LAST CYCLE USING MY EGGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Freeze them! Why didn't I think of that? I just wasn't sure if you'd still go through with sole donor if BFP. So...... does that mean your thinking of even one more after this possibly? I'm all for the more the merrier.

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Where did I come from?" the baby asked its mother. She answered, half-crying, half-laughing, and clasping the baby to her breast: "You were hidden in my heart as its desire, my darling. You were in the dolls of all my childhood games. In all my hopes and my loves, in my life, in the life of my mother, and in her mother before her, you have lived."
--Rabindranath Tagore

Hey Missy

Send some af "vibes" my way ok? Last dose of Provera for me was 2-10
and I am to start estrogen patches 2-15 not sure if we could proceed
w/o af for me..and I dont have any sxs of af coming ..........
Congrats on you getting AF I am so happy yr feeling better too.
you have had quite the year in 2006.........so 2007 has to be yr year.
So happy yr son graduated G9...I often wondered while our little one is
going thru those shool yrs again....that I will prob be learning all over again
hehehe.............
hang in there with your money woes..........we're close behind you.
I will say alittle prayer for both of Us!
I am so glad you'll have the opportunity to freeze many eggs for the
future as well.........

{{{ Hugs }}}

Barb

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