Wonder what direction I'll be headed in

deeceetoo · #1 (**permalink**) 10-27-2005, 11:34 AM

http://talk.sheknows.com/showthread....51#post3573851

Sorry. Just don't have the energy to re-post the post. This is just all so freakishly weird.

Sometimes, you get spun like a top. round and round we go.....

**Trimmer's Trio of Blue** · #2 (**permalink**) 10-27-2005, 12:33 PM

oh honey I'm so sorry. GOSH life is so unfair lately!!! I hate insurance and I love insurance but geez! Come on already! If you have the name of the person who told you you have no cap, I would call them and SCREAM how much this has STRESSED you out!!! They should walk a day in your shoes and see!!! I'm sorry honey I wish I had more to say.

staci · #3 (**permalink**) 10-27-2005, 12:48 PM

D-
So sorry about the merry go round you're on. I have faith it will stop and you will find the answers and the right path needed to get what you so desperately want-a baby. I do know a little of what you're feeling as far as when you seem to be on a path and then a boulder is thrown in the way. I'm starting a new path with a specialist and I know there will probably be no answers or green lights right away. Then there's the pain of time. I'm getting tired of this and it is all so hard. I wish I was like you and could say I'll just get through the holiday's and start fresh in the new year but I don't have that attitude-I want it now and most of all I want what I had back! Not sure if I've made any sense at all but just needed to vent a little.
Take care of yourself-I think I definitely need to hop on the "losing weight wagon" after this last pg and the last 2yrs of meds I have put on the weight

Sebsmommy · #4 (**permalink**) 10-27-2005, 01:39 PM

Michelle

Elisabeth · #5 (**permalink**) 10-27-2005, 02:49 PM

Dee, I sensed the melancholy in your post yesterday. First of all, believe that you will become a mother because there are so many options out there and your path will lead to the right one.

If you think you've reached the end of your options, emotionally or financially, I don't want you to give up until you've seriously considered IVF with donor eggs. In case you think that option is outside the purview of your finances, there are other countries that offer affordable treatment. India is at the cutting edge of IVF treatment, offering top of the line facilities for very affordable prices. IVF with a donor egg will cost you USD5000 with PGD. A trip to India is not hard to plan. Two plane tickets and two weeks at a beach resort. Doesn't sound bad does it?

So please don't give up hope, although I sense that you are at a difficult point in your journey.

I am a firm proponent of egg donor IVF and adoption. I can tell you, whether the baby is biologically yours or not, matters little. It's the little baby one falls in love with. I think I've said it before and I'll say it again. If the good stork had dropped Lollie off at my doorstep, then I would have loved her just the same.

Given my difficult pregnancies, I am considering adoption as an option for a second child.

Please forgive me if I've said something untoward. I want you to be happy and I know you will be. I know you feel the universe has not dealt you a fair hand, that the world has somehow robbed you of your mojo but I have faith that you will soon find it again because a good person like you has earned a lot of good Karma and believe me the universe finds a way to pay you back.

bighurt111 · #6 (**permalink**) 10-27-2005, 03:16 PM

Ditto to what Elizabeth said! I am sorry you are having to go through all this....no one deserves any of it! You are a very strong woman, I know you won't give up, and you will have a baby in your arms soon. If anyone deserves that feeling, it is you Dee. Please have faith and remember to hold on to that faith no matter what.

Big Hugs,
Wendy

toosoonyet · #7 (**permalink**) 10-28-2005, 08:37 AM

D,

I am sorry about the drama. I will keep you in my prayers. You have been so supportive of everyone around here and I want you to know that we all are here for you. I know things are tough, and I also know, being the strong woman that you are, you will get through these challenges and you will reach your goal, your dream come true. And when that day comes, there will be lots of celebrating going on on this board. Hang in there!

deeceetoo · #8 (**permalink**) 10-28-2005, 09:25 AM

Thank you ladies. It looks like it will be femara this cycle. Then regroup. I was looking forward to exercise, acupuncture and herbs but Michael doesnt want a break. We shall see. Hell be home tonight. Ill give you all the scoop in the AM.