I have been back here several times waiting for the update of the US...you had one, right? Worried for you, please check in.

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Sorry for the delay in getting back to you gals. I've been feeling really crappy for the last few days. I keep reminding myself that crappy is good. That it just means that LittleBug is getting all settled in, nice and cosy. But it really would be nice if mommy could breath.

Anyway, i had the u/s, and i guess it went ok, but i'm a bit angry with the person who did it. They found the sack, and spent about 20sec's doing a quick measurement. In that short time, i could see something fuzzy inside, and really wanted her to spend a little time getting a better view. However, she moved on, and spent probably a good 20min's looking at my ovaries, and making all kinds of measurements, and looking at them from all different angles. I felt like yelling at her and saying leave my d*** ovaries alone. They've done their work, now just let them rest for the next 9months!

On an u/s, they can listen to sound, and show blood flow to certain areas, and she did all of that a number of times with the ovaries. She did absolutely nothing with the gest. sack and the fuzzy bit inside. She wasn't even there long enough to find out if the baby's heart is beating yet. Hello!?! WTF!!! I was there to check out the BABY!!! I am so mad, i've been considering calling up the imaging center and demanding to know what that was all about. If i lose this baby too, it will probably be in the next 2 weeks. I want to know what's going on.

I'm sorry for going off like that on you all, but i was really looking forward to this u/s, and i feel like it was a complete waste of time. Probably the ONLY useful things learned was that the sack was in the uteris where it belongs, rather than somewhere dangerous, and that it is 7.6mm x ??mm. She never even mentioned that. I just happened to be looking on the screen at the right time in the right spot. B***h! Oops. Did i say that out loud?

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I finally get in to see the specialist today. I feel a little wary about it, because even though i'm seeing him for this first evaluation, it doesn't mean that he'll agree to take me on as a patiant. All i can do is wait and see.


Things seem a little surreal right now.
I feel much worse physically, but i'm in a much better mood. Why worry about a little bronchitis when you have a rosy outlook? Well, maybe only slightly pink, but you know what i mean. Can i blame that last msg on hormone swings? I really was upset, but now it seems like it wasn't that big a deal. Sigh!

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No, it WAS a VERY big deal. That tech had no idea how important this stuff is to you, especially as you have been through enough already. She has obviously lost her "people" skills. I am sorry, it stinks to look forward to something so much and be let down.

I for one am thrilled you feel rotten !!! Just be careful to eat, especially with the diabetes on top of it all. Keep us updated!

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Jess, How did it go with the specialist? Looking forward to your good news :-)

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http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/12909d

Yes yes, ditto the above!!

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It looks like i'm in, since she wants me to come back next week. She did another u/s, and told me what she was looking for, and answered ALL my questions. No h/b, but will look for that next week. She was really good about answering my questions (even the ones that were pretty stupid), and went over all the stuff she wanted to do as far as testing (when and why), and she was very sympathetic with my needing to get a letter from her for my employer (so they have it in writing what i need to do and need to avoid ). Is there a "Thank God" smiley somewhere? She was really nice, and i'm so glad i could see her.

I still can't breath, but at least i'm now on an antibiotic, and was told that it's ok to take Mucinex (time for the "thank god" smiley). I'm eating, sort of, but more just drinking gallons of o.j. and chicken bullion. And so far, it looks like littleBug really likes meat, veggies, and chocolate.

I probably shouldn't be referring to her at all yet, since i'm not past the risky time yet, and haven't even seen the h/b yet. I have about another month until i can start thinking of this one as a keeper. And the next 2 weeks is going to be the worst part.

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Glad things went well at the last visit! Sounds great AND you get to have another u/s in a week! Love those u/s! How cool that she's going to help you with that letter. You boss can really be an...uncool person if I remember correctly. Now you can be armed and ready!

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http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/12909d

I have a good good feeling about this one, Jess.

So glad all is prgressing along and you are happy with your doc.

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I saw the specialist again today, and had another u/s. Still no H/B! I'm now at 7w3d, and no H/B. The dr. said that maybe she's just getting a slow start. I don't know. I just feel like i'm going to be losing another baby. Maybe i'm wrong, but i'm really upset. After the apntmnt, i went and got a few bamboo shoots to stick in a pot. Yeah, i know that doesn't seem like such a big deal, but i wanted at least something to be alive and stay that way.

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Jess, I'm sorry sweety. I sure hope your specialist is right, and she is just a slow starter.

You and your little bean are in my

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Praying like mad for you and your bean. HUGS.

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Jess, I'm sending out heavy duty P&PTs to you and your little bean. I hope so bad that next time you'll see the h/b and can breath a sigh of relief.

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http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/12909d