Jess, How are you doing sweetie

deeceetoo · #1 (**permalink**) 03-24-2006, 09:04 AM

Just want you to know that I'm holding your hand right now.

I know it hurts, and I haven't been able to stop crying all day, but miracles do happen. What's your uterus like? Is it tilted? Many times that may keep you from seeing the heartbeat while he's still such a little guy.

And I have found miracles, honey. I don't want to get your hopes up but we have to keep faith don't we?

http://www.hipmama.com/node/14747

LMaKenna · #2 (**permalink**) 03-24-2006, 03:20 PM

I don't really know how i'm doing. If i don't think about it, then i'm just kinda numb and tired. I cried on/off a lot of yesterday, but today i'm just worn out. I feel like if i just push it away enough, maybe i can pretend that i was never pregnant to begin with. I know, that's pretty strange.

I did go to work today, and just sort of wandered thru the day. I was thinking that until i'm sure one way or the other, i should probably try to keep treating myself like i am. i.e. stick with the good nutrition(no margarita last night, not even much chocolate!), try to sleep(do i have to?), and lots of fluids(ok, i never got that completely down yet).

Mostly i'm just plain tired. My boobs still hurt, and i got really queasy this morning, and i keep having little cramps now/then. Would i still have that if the baby died a couple of days ago? I can't decide right now if i should make the effort to fix something for supper, or just crawl in bed for a long nap and get up when it's time to get ready for bed.

LMaKenna · #3 (**permalink**) 03-24-2006, 03:27 PM

Dee, i forgot to answer your question. Yes, i have a tipped uterus. I don't remember which way though.

deeceetoo · #4 (**permalink**) 03-24-2006, 05:06 PM

Jess, This site is very important to those of us with tipped uteruses. Many of these ladies had the same problem, but it was because their uterus was keeping them from being able to see the heart. Once the baby grew big enough to push the uterus down then they stop having problems. Again, I don't want to give you false hope but I refuse to give up until there simply is no more hope. Please read some of the posts here:

http://www.misdiagnosedmiscarriage.com/

meadowgirl · #5 (**permalink**) 03-24-2006, 05:29 PM

Hey Jess.

I'm still pulling for you too! Queesiness, little cramps and sore boobs are all VERY promising signs. (When I had my mc, I had no sickness whatsoever!) And the fact that you have a tilted uterus makes a misdiagnosis a little more likely.

Hang in there.

veroverito · #6 (**permalink**) 03-25-2006, 10:19 AM

Aww Jess I'm still kind of new to this forum and when I read your post I just had to come in to support you. It just breaks my heart to hear how upsetting this no h/b news was for you but do keep the faith. It's all we have at times.

Well, that and all of us here staying strong for you and sending you most positive thoughts and prayers along with the strongest of hugs. Did you feel that?

staci · #7 (**permalink**) 03-25-2006, 02:23 PM

I am keeping my fingers crossed for you!!!

LMaKenna · #8 (**permalink**) 03-25-2006, 04:06 PM

Dee,
I read several of the posts from that site.
OH MY GOD !!!!!!!!

Just thinking about all that makes me want to throw up. How many babies have been aborted just because the dr didn't think it would make it, and ordered a d&c without waiting. And so many of those stories sound like what i was told. I asked how likely it was that the baby had a chance even though she didn't see a h/b that day, and was told she had never seen it happen. Then she asked if i wanted to schedule a d&c for next week. I really do feel like i'm going to be sick. I need to stop thinking about this.

I think i need to hear a stupid joke at this point to get my mind off it. Here are my favorite silly smileys::

This one i love the most.
The friend who helped me once asked what i would tell the child if he decided to not be around while the child was growing up. I told him that i would say i shoved him out of the sandbox for throwing sand.