Jess

deeceetoo · #1 (**permalink**) 06-20-2006, 07:16 AM

How's it going for you sweetie?

LMaKenna · #2 (**permalink**) 06-22-2006, 07:05 AM

Hi Dee,
Thanx for asking. I haven't been doing so great. Some days are ok, but others i just want to start screaming and crying. I hate going to any store anymore because of the %@#^&@#$^&@#^$%&%$#@#^$# fad of having babies in hollywood. I don't give a rats a$$ about any of them. They can all go strait to h*!! for all i care. I've been trying since well before it became fasionable to be pregnant. And i still don't have my baby!

I know you were trying before i came on this site, but in 2 weeks it will be 3 years since i started. I just feel so worn down. I don't have any support other than the wonderful ladies on here, but it hurts a lot to come on here. I read about all the ladies that i've gotten to know who are now pregnant or have already had their baby. Then i read about all the ladies who are new who are already pregnant. I'm really happy for all of you. I am. But why can't i be one of them too? Why did my baby have to die? And so many of the people i work with are pregnant or just had a baby. Most of these are "oops, now i have to deal with this problem" situations.

I'm sorry for being so depressing, but i feel like i'm being told i'm not allowed to have a baby, like i'm not good enough to be allowed any kids. And one woman at work(who doesn't know about any of this) is always going on and on about "god's will". At times i just want to pound the h*!! out of her, and stuff her bible down her throat.

Hopefully nobody here takes offense to what i've said, because it's just the way i feel.

Baby4Clara · #3 (**permalink**) 06-22-2006, 08:49 AM

Jess, I'm sorry this has been so difficult for you. I know you feel I can't relate, because I just got pregnant, but I did spend many many years desperately wanting a baby, watching my friends have their second and third, and thinking it would never happen for me. (I didn't have a husband/boyfriend, and was pretty convinced I'd never meet someone who was right for me.)

My best friend is 43 and she has been trying for five years, and three months ago she found out she was pregnant. And another friend was 42 and had twins last year after being told she could never have children. So, all I can say is don't give up. It can still happen. I hope it happens for you very very soon. Here's an extra dose of fresh

for you...

Clara xo

deeceetoo · #4 (**permalink**) 06-23-2006, 10:16 AM

Oh, Sweetie!! Trust me I know what you are saying. After four years of trying and all I had to show for it was a couple of losses. I also would watch people who were so undeserving of children get pregnant over and over again (including a 25 year old niece, with 5 children, 4 different men, who would lock them up in a room while she left for clubs) while we waited.

But Clara is right! It's a matter of time. You need to let go of the stress as much as possible and take care of you, you, you.

And we're always here for you sweetie!! Always!!

mommie2be1966 · #5 (**permalink**) 06-23-2006, 12:51 PM

Jess, I wish there was some magical cure to help us get and KEEP the bfp!
I did put in a request for some water (nudge, nudge, wink wink)

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~Asana Mama~ · #6 (**permalink**) 06-24-2006, 11:43 AM

always going on and on about "god's will"

Those words are like fingernails on a chalkboard to me. I have a friend who does this all the time. She's even started with this pregnancy, telling me "if something happens, just remember it's God's plan". Could someone please tell god to put it in his plan to have these people STFU!

Having had a missed miscarriage last December, I also can relate to your pain with that. It just feels so damn deceiving...going around thinking you are pg just to find out on an u/s that the baby stopped growing weeks before.

Jess, I know I'm probably one of those "new" women as I've only been here a year, so I hope my response doesn't upset you. I just really really really hope that you have a baby soon. You do deserve it, and if God has other plans, well he can just change them!

LMaKenna · #7 (**permalink**) 06-25-2006, 07:21 AM

SIGH !!

Thankyou ladies for your kind words. I know most of the people on here have been thru the same or similar situations. It's nice to know that maybe i'm not becoming a royal b**ch, or going crazy, or that you won't mind if i do go(crazy, that is). I feel like i'm doing some major PMS'ing even tho i still have at least another week. Please don't anybody suggest that i POAS because no BD'ing this cycle, so zero chances.

SIGH !! (so much better than crying, it doesn't make your nose run)