Frustrated!

staci · #1 (**permalink**) 11-13-2005, 05:20 PM

I just want to move onto the next cycle and get my results back from the blood tests! I feel like time is standing still right now (since the d&c on 10/28). It is taking forever. And to top it off I had spotting last week that ended up going no where. I see my Dr. tomorrow for my 2 week post-op appt. and I know he won't have anything to say except "you're healing and we need to wait!" Which I know is good news but not what I want right now.
It didn't help much to have to take my son to a b-day party today to find out 2 husband's wives are expecting and one woman there was pg. Whoopee for me! I just had to suck it up but thinking the whole time I should be about 11 wks pg right now

It just doesn't get easier or when you think it might be a little easier a boulder gets thrown in front of you!
Thanks gals for your support!

deeceetoo · #2 (**permalink**) 11-14-2005, 03:46 AM

I can't stop thinking how, if I had not had my second loss, I would be holding a nearly-4-month old at the thanksgiving table. And buying cute little Christmas outfits for my baby. Instead, I'm hoping to get out of going to the In-Laws because I don't want to be within 100 feet of the baby.

I know that we will make it but why does it have to be so hard right? I know that once we're holding our babies, it'll all pale in the joy of it all, but until then there's no harm in wishing God would give us a little push in the right direction. That kind of desire gets us doing more.

And we remember: We love you!

staci · #3 (**permalink**) 11-14-2005, 03:40 PM

Thanks D! Ugh it's down right shitty! That's all there is to it.
I had my appt. today. I do love my Dr. and I told him the dr. he recommended for high risk pregnancy was a little "cocky" and a bit put off that I asked questions and threw out various names in the infertility world. It didn't surprise him at all so we all wait now for the results from my bloodwork! I'm probably not going to be normal (cycle wise) until January so we'll be trying again then. I should have results and hopefully moving forward on any meds by then! I'm just afraid I am in that grey area and will be moving forward in the fog! Ugh!
So glad I have support from all you gals! My husband has no clue and I can't talked to him about any of this stuff!

**Trimmer's Trio of Blue** · #4 (**permalink**) 11-14-2005, 10:50 PM

Staci,

I'm sorry this is so frustrating for you. Have you give any thought to having your old Dr. Review your file? I know you really trust his opinion and it might give you some peace of mind knowing he knows you and all. I know it's got to be just nerveracking each time you have to deal with "Cocky" I know it all Dr's. I hope these test do give you some answers soon.